For the past year and few months that I've been here, and especially in the past month or so, I've been posting some relatively outrageous and oftentimes offensive material, and have even somewhat broken the Terms of Service on Live Chess (discussion of Chuck Norris). I recently made the claim that Chuck Norris had suffered 2 strokes and died, and advertised my thread on Live Chess - I've deleted my comments from that thread and apologized in the Liver Chess chat.

I understand that in the past, I've also made such posts that people may have found offensive and too harsh for this website. I feel that I also owe them an apology. Likewise, I owe the Moderators and Staff an apology for this behavior - they have had to deal with some of the things I've written and with some of the offensive responses I;ve recieved - indeed, I've made more work for them, rather than giving them laughs, as I initially intended to do.

I acknowledge that I am attention-hog because I did not recieve a lot of friendly attention from my peers as a very small child (my close family, however, gave me A LOT of attention - they have no blame in this whatsoever). But I did feel that I was missing on attention from others my age - those I could consider equal to myself. Here, on chess.com, I consider my fellow chessplayers equal to me, even if on the simple basis of humor. So I've tried to make these threads with jokes, sometimes offensive, in order to get the attention that I felt I lacked early on from my peers. Of course, I got did get positive attention, but I likewise recieved negative attention.

These people were offended by me - and I ignored this fact because they were simply screennames to me - I did not, however, neglect to pay attention to those who gave me compliments. I even paid attention to those who gave me fair, constructive criticism. But not to those who were hurt by me. My mind blocked the negativity that I was trying to bypass since childhood. This also explains my tendency to try to be positive and always be in a laughing mood. It likewise explains my rather extreme low moods - all of it comes out concentrated and in large amounts. Well, this is one of those moods - but it also allowed me to logically understand that I hurt people who did not deserve to be hurt.

Now, I love chess.com and the forums, etc., and I will stay on this website. But I will not participate in the forums like I used to so that I don't offend people like I have in the past year and few months. And please, do not take this as a cry for attention - this is an apology - and the only way my apology will spread is through a public forum. And this is sincere. My friends, do not take this as a joke thread - it isn't: I promise you that.

Once again, I apologize for being an attention-hog, hurting people, and for causing the mods extra work - I will not do so anymore. Thank you very much - please no offensive comments that the Mods have to delete.

self-diagnosis is the most valuable kind :)

Indeed, it's the best way to begin helping yourself, rather than to have others try to help you and fail. I simply hope I'll mentally grow from this, especially since I'm legally an adult soon.

lol is this for real?

damn...no more funny topics

beast is still out there

Internet apologize!!!! Well that was a great surprize!

Not meaning to attract attention (honestly), but should I delete all of my first posts now that it's possible to do so without deleting all subsequent comments? I know that what damage has been done has already been done, so I'm leaving this decision open for now...

No! At least with those there we can go back and re-read them! Leave the funny-assed stuff you've already posted!!! =D

are u serious doc?

So now the chess.com forums will only be about half as funny. But, thankfully, as adhdkid91 already mention, Beast is still out there.

DONT YOU DARE

Don't worry LYCAN148, the doc is just pulling you leg.

 Not this time, pal... You haven't seen any new joke threads yet, have you? No leg-pulling from me.

sad

but

true

we all accidentally offend someone, sometime.

it is the collateral damage of trying to be funny.

Collateral damage? For me, it's the whole objective! ;D