Compulsive Chess Games Getting In the Way of Life
What is your intent of playing chess? Sure we all like the game, otherwise we wouldn't be here.
But what is it that always makes you want to hit REMATCH or NEW GAME?
I have a rising concern addressing this issue. This is my story:
For me, I am constantly trying to improve my rating. Raiting is everything to me for some reason. I only play 3 minute games on LIVE because I don't like spending a long time waiting for people to make a move. Plus, if it is a bad game, I like the fact that I can play a rematch or play another game very quickly to redeem myself. Also, I never know if my opponent is using a chess engine to cheat. I choose 3 minute LIVE for all these reasons.
Quick rematches are awesome. And I can play dozens of games in a short period of time. However, this becomes a problem. I get extremely uncomfortable when my rating gets below 1400 and I feel like I have to to keep playing until I reach a more desirable rating. But the pressure and frustration invlolved with this makes me play worse and it can sometimes be difficult to climb back up the ladder. My rating usually stays within the 1400 - 1500 range. Every once in awhile I spike up to the 1500's ; I think my highest was a 1550 or something like that.
Sure, it feels nice to have a nice winning streak now and then and playing some strong games against touch opponents. We all love that feeling it gives us. But the feeling of NOT being ahead and being below 1400 makes me feel so unsatisfied, and my day will legitimately change because I won't feel adequate. I feel failed, and inadequate. I think about it outside of chess.com thats how shitty it makes me feel.
I am studying Electrical Engineering at Kettering University and sadly, this problem I have gets in the way of my studies. After studying for a decent amount of time, I "reward" myself with some chess.com. However, if I am not satisfied with my games, or my rating, I will NOT STOP playing until I am satisfied. This often entails me playing chess for hours, and well into the night, when I should be sleeping or studying.
I do realize that live chess is not the most accurate representation of ones chess strength. My learning from these game is minimal because unless it was a super awesome game, I almost never go back an analyze the game to identify my mistakes. I am just so compulsive, I need to go back and play another.
Outside of LIVE, I consider myself a decent player, I don't participate in tournaments or anything, but I am an active member in my school's chess club and usually hold my own pretty well. I am curious to see how accurate the rating system from chess.com is... If I were to start playing in some USCF tournaments, would my rating be close to what it usually is one chess.com??
Do other people have this frustrating problem of compulsive games fo chess??
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