"Just one of those days"

giggle0silent2
giggle0silent2
Aug 30, 2008, 1:29 PM |
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"Just One Of Those Days"
 
 I just need to cry today;

 take a break from life and fly away.

let go of hopes and shallow dreams;
let go of pain-filled memories.

 
yesterday was soo messed up.
 it was all goin good.....until my dad said a bunch of stuff.
 
 i tried to tell him that i missed how we used to talk.
but he wouldn't listen. he just kept shouting at the top of his lungs.
 
 when i looked into his eyes i felt like i was taking my mothers spot.
i felt like i was getting beaten just like my mother the day she pulled the trigger.that  day her life was lost.
 
he looked at me different. there was only hate.
 if there was love, i couldn't see it.it was something that i couldn't escape.
 
 i tried to find love......but i gave up
 when the tears started falling. they wouldn't stop. 
 
he wouldn't understand. he couldn't understand.
 i don't think he even tried to give me another chance
 
but somehow i know that he loves me.even though everything has changed.
even though i have changed completely. i've been dishonest and i'm ashamed.
 
i will try harder this time. i will love him. even when it hurts.
i will earn everything back again. but its gonna take some work.
 

-  I just need to cry today;

 take a break from life and fly away.

let go of hopes and shallow dreams;
let go of pain-filled memories.

                           

 - Me