Personal Theology That Actually Affects My Play
Do you believe this? —John 11:26
Martha believed in the power available to Jesus Christ; she believed that if He had been there He could have healed her brother; she also believed that Jesus had a special intimacy with God, and that whatever He asked of God, God would do. But was it enough? Did she need a closer personal intimacy with Jesus? Martha’s theology had its fulfillment in the future. But Jesus continued to attract and draw her in until her belief became an intimate possession. It then slowly emerged into a personal inheritance—
"Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ . . ." –John 11:27.
The Lord is dealing with me in the same way. Jesus is teaching me to have a personal intimacy with Him. I am pondering His question in the deepest way I know— "Do you believe this?" I am certainly facing an area of doubt in my life. I have come, like Martha, to a crossroads of overwhelming circumstances where my theology is about to become a very personal belief. My personal problems have brought me to an awareness of my personal need.
To believe is to commit. In the area of intellectual learning I commit myself mentally, and reject everything not related to that belief. In the realm of personal belief I commit myself morally to my convictions and refuse to compromise. But in intimate personal belief I commit myself spiritually to Jesus Christ and make a determination to be dominated by Him alone.
Sometimes, when I stand face to face with Jesus Christ and He says to me, "Do you believe this?" I find that faith is as natural as breathing. And I am staggered to think how foolish I have been to not have trusted Him immediately.