I am quite bad at chess with a mmr of 350 and not being able to improve. I feel that Chess can represent a person intelligences, and I am shit at it. Ever time I make a move I see a better move. The. A move I did not even see always happenes. I can not see anything. This game is so difficult for me, and makes me deathly afraid that I am of average or below average intelligence. It scares me to death that after all of the work I have endured that I am still just bloody average.