I was not taught how to play the game once my parents divorced. I self studied because I could not find someone in person or online to teach me how to improve my game. 1800's would crush me, but none would tell me how to improve. I was taught by Jesus and he opened my eyes to see the game and how to study. He has brought me joy in playing as well. It use to be all about winning and my rating. But I was broken when I beat everyone. I realized my rating was built upon others and winning all the time didn't make me happy. Something was missing. pm me if you are interested in hearing and discussing this pm me and we can discuss this further.