I like this better - less vague.
Clearly, it is a decision in-the-making... a tough one. But the speaker seems determined to make the right one for the long run.
What helps it show the progress of the process is that each rhyming couplet can be isolated as describing a step along the way.
live among the careful
see the care fulfill
driven to confusion
from the thoughts of seclusion
peel back the crease
sweep the tears underneath
stand firm, the though is waiting
lay low when thoughts are creating
stamp my approval on the wanted
live among firmly with the haunted
a life of creation in the midst
sent abroad to learn and coexist