i hate myself.

I’m sorry if I sound like a spoiled brat, but… it’s draining me.

So, whenever there is a school break, my mum makes me go on trips (usually overseas). Even though it sounds great to you, it’s exhausting to me. Like I’m an introvert and I can’t really relax unless I’m at home. However, my mum is the polar opposite of me — extroverted and always plans the vacations in which none of them I enjoy.

Furthermore, the trips aren’t short — they take up the whole school break. Like whenever I actually get to enjoy home, it’s either me having to go to bed right away or only having a few hours to enjoy my life. And she wonders why I spend so much time on the iPad during vacations… And when I tried to talk to my mum about this, she either ignores me or says that “children are supposed to obey their parents unconditionally” and I have no say in the trips’ planning.

Also, the nature of these trips is genuinely sadistic towards me. A lot of those trips are tours, so I’m surrounded by a dozen or more of strangers that constantly give me attention without knowing that I’m actually an introvert and prefers being left alone. And when I tried to tell my mum to tell them to ignore my presence, she refuses and says that since I’m a kid, everyone is supposed to care about me and that I am supposed to want attention. I try to ignore the strangers, but they express too much intimacy and affection towards me that it’s making me uncomfortable and genuinely made me want to cuss at them. When I tried to explain that the constant attention and intimacy makes me uncomfortable, she shuts me up and calls me “naughty” and “antisocial”, when in fact I am introverted and just wanted to be left alone. Furthermore, she told me that everybody on the tour knows I’m autistic and uneducated, making me even more insecure.

So, yeah. I guess I should accept my fate. 

Bro…

you repeated the story twice…

i understand

im also an introvert in real life

Maybe you should make a blog, a video-log or a photo log

mhm me too

i usually just have a small but close friend group

I really LOVE traveling btw

Because I wanted to make it and I didn’t like it but I love traveling so maybe it should work

Do y’all not care about my situation?

Yes u posted this

not the forum to derail my friend.

you shouldn’t derail in general.

anyways

as an introvert myself, that sounds….honestly….bad…

i mean you should be able to enjoy YOUR break,

Maybe help your mom plan it to make it more you friendly and request stuff, it doesn’t hurt

Hi

That sucks but I have a question do u actually have autism, ftr I feel you being an introvert

Well that just sucks...

I feel like this too sometimes, like instead of getting a break and time to relax, I instead get shunted around some place 12 hours a day (at least I get some say in where we travel though).

One way I think about it is that I will probably never get to spend time in these sorts of places again, and I should cherish it as much as possible while I still can. It doesn't make my head any less droopy, or my feet any less sore, but I find that when I look for something amazing, anywhere, there is always something waiting to amaze.

Hope one day your mum lets you have a choice

Sad

check ur dm

ima introvert gng

well, ignore what your mom says

because you were not meant to be this

nor that nor that nor that

you're meant to be you

and not your mom