I wrote this for my best friend who i had known my whole life.. (i miss you already😭😭😭)

I'm staying up late tonight,
thinking to myself crying my eyes out.
I can't believe you're gone
Still got the memories of you,
the truth is im not ready...
I look back on all the good times we had.
It's killing me now that it's all in the past.
I'm drowning in the pain,
wishing it could just go away.
I have so many things to say,
but I guess i'm too late. 
Guess that's a closed gate. 
I miss you... 

I wasnt ready to say goodbye.
I try not to cry,
god why's that so hard to do?
I can't do this without you,
you always knew what to say and do. 
i could never hate you.
You were my best friend,
I can't believe this is the end.
Now i'm reminiscing on the memories,
just come back please. 
I can't do this without you. 
I'm not ready to say goodbye. 
I'm not ready...

I know you're not dead,
but god it feels like you are now. 
Can't even call you up if I wanted to. 
I replay our days together in my mind,
just to hear your voice again, 
I don't know if i can deal with the pain.
It's not the same here without you,
I have no clue what to do.
I wish you were here. 
Please just be here. 

I wasnt ready to say goodbye.
I try not to cry,
god why's that so hard to do?
I can't do this without you,
you always knew what to say and do. 
i could never hate you.
You were my best friend,
I can't believe this is the end.
Now i'm reminiscing on the memories,
just come back please. 
I can't do this without you. 
I'm not ready to say goodbye. 
I'm not ready...

I know it's not your fault you left.
Parents are inconsiderate,
I have no idea why they did it
but they made you leave. 
It's not fair,
didn't they know I'd miss you?
I wish we had more time,
now you're on my mind all the time. 
I didn't think I could miss someone this much.
I didn't think I could hurt this much. 
If I could stay up on call all night 
or If I could hug you one last time,
to get a goodbye, it would be everything to me. 
Just hold your hand in mine one more time,
forget everything, 
lets just be together one more time. 

I wasnt ready to say goodbye.
I try not to cry,
god why's that so hard to do?
I can't do this without you,
you always knew what to say and do. 
i could never hate you.
You were my best friend,
I can't believe this is the end.
Now i'm reminiscing on the memories,
just come back please. 
I can't do this without you. 
I'm not ready to say goodbye. 
I'm not ready...

I'm drowning in my own tears,
feel all my fears are coming true. 
Losing all my friends,
That's killing me, 
but at least you were here.
Now I'm all alone and I don't know what to do, 
I hate this life without you.
Don't even wanna go on if you wont be here, 
This is just pure pain. 
please don't leave,
I know I'm not ready,
just stay with me,
I'm not ready.

I wasnt ready to say goodbye.
I try not to cry,
god why's that so hard to do?
I can't do this without you,
you always knew what to say and do. 
i could never hate you.
You were my best friend,
I can't believe this is the end.
Now i'm reminiscing on the memories,
just come back please. 
I can't do this without you. 
I'm not ready to say goodbye. 
I'm not ready...

I wasn't ready to say goodbye. 
Cause I'm not ready to let you go, 
You were my best friend,
No way this is the end.
I just wanna stay with you one more night.
I just wish I could hear your voice one more time.
I can't do this without you.
I'm not ready 
I don't think I ever will be
I'm not ready for this,
I'm not ready for life without you, 
I'm not ready.  
Oh, I'm not ready. 

btw this is more of a slow country song vibe, not rap like ive been doing

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭I love it a lot but it’s so sad😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭