my song...

(chorus: I need help, but I don't want it, I know I need it, that's what I tell myself at night. verse 1 rap feel: I put up a front to hide the depression and suicidal thoughts, i act all happy and ignorant when really I'm sad and wanting to die. chorus: I need help I don't want it, i know I need it, lord knows I need it. verse 2 rap feel: I've wanted to die since 2020, covid f***ed with all of us, I f***ed up my life, let my grades slip let my relationship with my fam go to h*ll, i even let my hygiene slip, sh*t, I f***ed it up... chorus.. I need help, but I don't want it, I know I need it, that's what I tell myself at night. verse 3: my friends wanna help but I'm too messed up to let them, I hurt the ones I love, i wish I could just let people help but I'm too caught up in my mental agony, I argue to keep from crying, I smile to push back the breakdown, this sh*t sucks which is why i need to get out but I know I still  need help, but I don't want it, I know I need it, that's what I tell myself at night
 

I cleaned it up for isek

real, the worst thing about it is no one irl knows that I'm putting up a front...

I can relate to that

I cleaned it up. doyou see 1 full curse word? no. you don't. as I've said abvrev or use stars.

Ah fellow songwriter. Also I'm pretty sure isek is a him

pronouns are any of the following: he, she, him or her, i honestly don't care, as long as it's on of those 4)

and ya isek is a he as well (isek like Issak )