I want to take a moment to make a serious and heartfelt public apology to Flower.
I’ve had some time to reflect on what I said, and the truth is, there’s no way to justify it. Calling him a “fat liar” and using other insults was not just a joke or heat-of-the-moment comment—it was disrespectful, unnecessary, and genuinely hurtful. Looking back, I’m honestly disappointed in myself for choosing to speak that way.
Flower didn’t deserve any of that. No one does. Behind every username is a real person, and I completely failed to remember that in the moment. Instead of showing even basic decency, I chose to say things meant to put someone down, and that’s something I regret deeply.
What bothers me most is not just the words themselves, but the mindset behind them. I let frustration and ego take over, and I acted in a way that goes against the kind of person I want to be, especially in a community like this. Chess is supposed to be about growth, respect, and learning—not tearing others down.
I also understand that words like that can stick with someone longer than I might realize. Even if it seemed small to me at the time, it could have genuinely hurt or affected Flower, and that’s something I take seriously. I don’t want to be someone who contributes negativity or makes others feel disrespected or unwelcome.
Flower, I’m truly sorry for what I said to you. I’m sorry for the insults, for the tone I used, and for the lack of respect I showed. You didn’t deserve to be spoken to like that, and I regret being the one who said those things.
I’m not expecting immediate forgiveness, and I understand if you’re still upset. All I can say is that I take full responsibility, and I will work on controlling my words and reactions better moving forward. I want to do better—not just say it, but actually show it through my actions.
To everyone else who may have seen that exchange, I’m sorry for bringing that kind of negativity into the community as well. That’s not the kind of example I should be setting.
Again, Flower, I’m genuinely sorry. I regret what I said, and I’ll make sure I don’t repeat that kind of behavior again. Please unblock me so that I can continue living.
I want to take a moment to make a serious and heartfelt public apology to Flower.
I’ve had some time to reflect on what I said, and the truth is, there’s no way to justify it. Calling him a “fat liar” and using other insults was not just a joke or heat-of-the-moment comment—it was disrespectful, unnecessary, and genuinely hurtful. Looking back, I’m honestly disappointed in myself for choosing to speak that way.
Flower didn’t deserve any of that. No one does. Behind every username is a real person, and I completely failed to remember that in the moment. Instead of showing even basic decency, I chose to say things meant to put someone down, and that’s something I regret deeply.
What bothers me most is not just the words themselves, but the mindset behind them. I let frustration and ego take over, and I acted in a way that goes against the kind of person I want to be, especially in a community like this. Chess is supposed to be about growth, respect, and learning—not tearing others down.
I also understand that words like that can stick with someone longer than I might realize. Even if it seemed small to me at the time, it could have genuinely hurt or affected Flower, and that’s something I take seriously. I don’t want to be someone who contributes negativity or makes others feel disrespected or unwelcome.
Flower, I’m truly sorry for what I said to you. I’m sorry for the insults, for the tone I used, and for the lack of respect I showed. You didn’t deserve to be spoken to like that, and I regret being the one who said those things.
I’m not expecting immediate forgiveness, and I understand if you’re still upset. All I can say is that I take full responsibility, and I will work on controlling my words and reactions better moving forward. I want to do better—not just say it, but actually show it through my actions.
To everyone else who may have seen that exchange, I’m sorry for bringing that kind of negativity into the community as well. That’s not the kind of example I should be setting.
Again, Flower, I’m genuinely sorry. I regret what I said, and I’ll make sure I don’t repeat that kind of behavior again. Please unblock me so that I can continue living.
Yours truly..... Essence