something weird happened to me :/

something weird (normal) happened to me :/

I had sleep paralysis again.

This time it was different.

Note: You may not want to search sleep paralysis up because you may see some disturbing photos.

Sleep paralysis is. . .: Sleep paralysis is a temporary state of paralysis that occurs when a person is falling asleep or waking up. It is characterized by the inability to move or speak, while remaining conscious and aware of surroundings. 

I remember praying and reading the Bible on my bed before I lay down for sleep.

After a while, though I am not sure how long it was, I was dreaming.

At this moment, I'm going to be writing about a specific part of my dream and after that and then sleep paralysis.

I don't really remember what I was dreaming before this part of the dream but I know it has some connection with it.

• Details of the dream:

So, at this time, my dream had something to do with an East Asian couple. They seemed like they were famous or something. At least the woman was. She had black hair, a few strands of bangs on her forehead, pale white skin with a little bit of yellow tint. She seemed to have been a model / internet star according to the dream. The man had browner hair and yellower skin.

Anyways, at this time in the dream, I was looking at pictures of them. I seemed to be located in a rather empty mall with many rooms but I know that these people and some others were in it.

Looking at pictures of them isn't the same thing as holding camera-photos in my hand and moving my eyes and hands to study them. At the same time the photos were alive. Not sure if that makes sense. 🤔

I call the sights "photos" because the scene would change overtime (quickly) and I would see another image as if somehow that was possible.

All I know is I saw them, and it seemed like sometimes I was holding pictures, using a device, watching them float in front of my face, just knowing they were there, or all of those at the same time.

• What happened strange:

As I was looking at them one photo came to my sight.

And this is when a very bad thing happened to me.

The image showed the woman with her hand over her face, her fingers were spread out. You could see her eyes and maybe her some of her nose because her hand was covering mostly the bottom side of her face.

This photo is similar to another one that I have seen irl on the internet. If I find it I may show it here.

Found it.

Only one hand on face. Slightly different pose. Located on an escalator. You could see the guy's body a little. He was taking the pic. Different clothes. Yellower skin. Different hair type. More bangs.

It seemed inspired by this pic tho.

Something about looking at the photo hit different than looking at the others.

It felt like something about the photo was cursed. In a way that would harm anyone who laid their eyes on it.

I felt my heart ache and myself fall into misery as if I just did something forbidden and now I must hopelessly face the consequences of it.

• Sleep paralysis:

Right after I looked at the photo, I woke up. I was able to move and open my eyes—I didn't want to open my eyes.

I did at first when I woke up but something in my sight gave me a vision I didn't want to see.

I believe I was looking around my room—my wall, then in front of me—I might have actually even sat up.

I saw those colorful shapes that sometimes you see after you rub your eyes or wake up...and uh they like started to turn to.....like an image? images? weird vision. um a new- world :< it's rlly scary. especially when u get more scared...then things get worse...

I don't really remember what exactly it was. (It was multiple things it seemed because the images changed, but thy were heavily related to each other. They were more related to each other than the images of the couple.)

I could possibly describe SOME of it by showing a video. But it is a video I really don't want to send so I won't.

Every time I opened my eyes I saw something that I might call a...monster?

I know that I was describing it as a shape-shifting-dog/fox/wolf-like-creature monster at the time and after but I don't rlly remember what it looked like anymore. There seemed to be moving "fire" that was changing color or something around it like a background. The fire and it's movement was like the "fire" in the Eye of Sauron, from the Lord of The Rings movie series.

I could here loud demonic (I'm just going to say bcs 😌✋🏻) growls + other creepy sounds (even if I didn't open my eyes) that seemed to be coming from behind me or everywhere.

I couldn't move really (when I have sleep paralysis I can't rlly move + it hurts to move) and it felt like there was something heavy on my left hip/ribs/etc that made me feel uncomfortably ticklish in a painful way- Ever have something like that? Especially when you're dreaming ._. ehh :<

Even worse, although my eyes were closed... I could like still see it. And maybe it's not the same kind of seeing? It's just like I know it's there- but at the same time it makes me able to see it...somehow..it's weird :< and scary TvT !!!

It was extremely intense. All of it. The way I could feel things was like I was in a realer reality. Reality right now is nothing compared to what it was at that time. When I have sleep paralysis I can feel an evil presence. A very strong one.

It was extremely intense.

I felt like I was being attacked and I also felt like there was a message trying to be sent through this.

A warning, possibly?

Something about that photo wasn't good. I don't understand what though.

• What was different:

It was different because I was calmer (but I was still afraid obvs). Maybe in a slightly hopeful way?

My body probably had something to do with my reaction. Tense moment.

More different- The vision seemed to be in a confined space. In the middle of my sight. It was like a circular window of fire. It was right in front of me.

Also it had a strange connection to my dream as if the dream was a reality that could effect this reality: so that I would wake up and experience consequences. The looking at the image wasn't rlly even controllable for me...I just had eyes to see and I saw...I had no will. Or there was a very narrow way to escape. I wasn't expecting something like that to happen if I used my eyes like I HAD to by fate until I looked at it ;-;

I have experienced sleep paralysis numerous times before and I was already kinda expecting it to happen that night....

• Praying:

I believe I was praying a few min before this happened ("this" = 1st or 2nd sleep paralysis event).

I was asking God to forgive me and help me make things right if anything that I have done wrong before. I was thinking about myself. Lately (maybe not now..?) I've been feeling not in the best condition. Which means I'm spiritual weaker++. I was thinking about how, before, I was a better vessel for God, and how I could be that way again. And what a shame I would bring to God if I presented myself incomplete. I can't let evil win. Goodness will forever be in my right hand. I know too much better to let Glory fail. I also told Him to let me go through the test again...(ahh this is getting kinda personal :/) and that I was afraid.

I know I was praying when it was happening. It lasted maybe 3 min? But idk. It just felt long. ("it" = 1st sleep paralysis event)

I don't know how to perfectly word what I saying. (partly because I forgot and partly because my prayer is to be understood and known without human words—which makes it way easier for me to do in my natural form  + do it faster) I do believe though that some words escaped my mouth. (might have been in this reality...) I remember saying something like, "Please help me. God."

Also note that I don't scream or...move my body much when stuff like this happens :/

• Exit 1.

It stopped finally. And I found out that there was something on me ;/ actually

Um but it wasn't like rlly threatening... I just moved it off me and .....idr ;-; I know I fell into the dream again- a few min later...or seconds...

I was pretty calm...

• Again.

Ugh......There was like a quick flash of the pic again :<

I COULDN'T STOP IT.

This is when things started to get to me. Like I wasn't sure if "Ya, it's def the pic." but after this TvT Ya def DONT LOOK AT ThAT PIC AGAIN (even tho u cant control it ;-; )

And I have intrusive thoughts...so i needed to be rlly careful...or it would happen again :<

Slowly the vision turned into a different one where I was in a familiar place. (To understand this you need to have experienced my dreams...........+)

In this scene. I was safe. from that uh wtvr.....sleep paralysis... kinda.. I could move (I was dreaming)

There were 2 sets of parts of me. And subsets of 2 for each set. Most of the time, I was in a different body form. Which represented me/was me. And/or at this same time I was in my physical human form and other form(s) at the same time. Hard to explain. Easy to understand.

So. There were 4 of me (if that makes sense). Two on one side (negative side) and 2 on the other side (rather positive side.)

I was the most positive one. I was the submissive one and my master was my partner (in sets).

(Btw I'm speaking in a different form. A deeper meaning lies within my words. Smh I don't mean that I was a literal slave forced to participate in strenuous labor for someone else (in a specific way) or wtvr. Also All 4 were me. Just different functions of me.)

We all were old men with long white hair and a long beard wearing green robes. The robes might have been in different shades of green for each individual.

My master had a knife. Both masters did.

I was the disciple of my master, therefore I was also weaker and the one being taken care of.

There was another "weak one" which was the antagonist's disciple. The antagonist was the other master.

What I remember was that me and my master were walking in the familiar place and we entered into a room that contained the other set. I believe the other disciple left swiftly once we approached them. My master confronted the other master and tried to reason with him on behalf of our life.

(That other master had fallen into a void of self-loss and his strength failed him. He couldn't think correctly, he wasn't in his best condition for this, so he failed in his own reasoning and wanted to rid of the other set, me and my master. This was done in simple-mindedness. Basically he was afraid and weak in a way that he turned selfish and wanted to kill me and my master. With his knife.)

This had something to do with what I have been meditating one. I understand this part. I would classify it as important.

While my master was trying to reason with him they were both moving towards a door. My master was walking towards the door, him being positioned in front of and facing the other. The other master was walking backwards and turning from time-to-time. He didn't want to accept the reasoning. He, in himself, plotted to kill us, and made it a higher priority by the second.

The door was open, yet closed at the same time. I was near the door. I was near the door that was open and near the wall.

As my master dear nearer to other, still trying to convince him/change him/fix him, he decided that it was useless and that the best thing to do would be to kill him. I was afraid as I watched. I knew the other was about to stab my master and my master knew it to. He was trying to be careful. Both were.

The moment was tense and he took his chance and tried to stab the other but the other stabbed him first, which I watched in dread. I knew I was next and I had already planted part of myself behind the door, between the door and the wall.

He knew I was there and he stabbed me :>

He tried and failed and then tried again (I believe) and he stabbed me :>

I knew it was a dream but it was still real to me + I do get hurt in dreams from stuff like this...

He stabbed me but things changed and it was like the past was wiped away. Even though he did stab me he also didn't stab me, at the same time.

• Jesus?

This might sound a little weird but from my understanding Jesus, Jesus Christ, was there at the time, walking through the hallway on the left towards the door to stop or reverse what he did. I don't remember much...I mean I can't give that many details because I forgot./it was blurry after this.. :,<

I'm not saying that I actually saw Him. I'm just telling my dream/vision.

Why did I think/see it was Him? When I'm dreaming/having sleep paralysis I usually just know/believe things.

What did He look like? He kinda looked like the stereotypical Jesus. Long-ish shiny-blondish-brown hair. A beard. Golden-tanish-white skin (ykwim). Maybe 6-7 feet tall? He was wearing a white/beige robe I think.

I don't really want to describe Him too much...

Did I talk to Him? I think so but I can't really remember what it was besides thanking Him. In my heart.

It was short. And I think the dream might have ended there 🤔

Again, I'm not saying that was Him for real. :,> pls don't kill me.

• Peace.

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There is more...I might share it........

• Sharing it :>

Later on in the dream more things happened.

(I believe it was actually after the "Jesus" thing | I don't rlly remember if I woke up or just continued dreaming. It felt different when I went to the next "section" so I suppose that I might have woken up incompletely and then fallen asleep again. )

If I told you everything it would be too long + I'm sure I forgot stuff, so I'm only going to tell some.

Basically I was dreaming about what happened after I was looking at those pics. (in the dream scene, not the sleep paralysis.) The couple was there and I was able to look at her and not like have something horrible happen to me lma0. She had slightly browner hair 🤔.

It seemed like that her "power" or whatever was drained and it had no power over me.🙂

I can't really tell you alot/most of the dream because lots of stuff would be/are hard to explain. Right now.

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FIRST TIME SLEEP PARALYSIS?

first? no.

also I'm not done writing it.

It gets more complicated

SHOO I FORGOT MY WORDS 😭😭

I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO LET IT OUT TwT

;-;

um im not even done yet also-

:/

im sad

also lastnight (the same night) i drew a kinda creepy picture of a....uhh kinda like a cat fox demon thingy but-

I made it less creepy- but it's still creepy :/ it was just a quick sketch bcs i was practicing eyes++

move? you mean from where I live?

also r u jking ;-;

ummm I've lived in like 5-7 different place and I probably had sleep paralysis in all of them :/

wdym...?

also I added more ;-;

and this is still not the end of it hahah!

sry TvT i just....it's different now.. also...it's just a sign of energy bound and released. (saying, "hahah!"}

WTF THATS WITCHCRAFT

WHY WOULD I DO THAT??

why would u joke? seriously???

-_-

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to show you what made me think u were joking.

sigh

*continues editing*

Umm. That sounds like a demon if I’ve ever heard of one

what demon ;-;

Idk to be honest. But who knows, could be something else