what has been making me angry about chess!!

*WARNING, BEFORE YOU READ THIS POST. PLEASE TAKE NOTES THAT THIS A RANTING POST LETING OUT MY PSYCHOLOGICAL FRUSTRATION ABOUT MY 2000 BLITZ GOAL IN CHESS. IF YOU DON’T FEEL COMFORTABLE READING, THEN I SUGGEST YOU SKIP TO AVOID THE HEADACHE IM GOING THROUGH. THANKS*




This may be an asking for some advice post but not all. first, I would like to clarify why I’m making this post. It’s for the simple reason that I am frustrated. I am angry, due to the fact that I had one particular goal in mine and is that I really want to get 2000 blitz.


For the past few months every time I lose a game I’m just angry. I blame no one but the person for my loss. No, I’m not narcissistic. I am aware of my actions. It’s just that I cannot stand a loss; and it makes me wanna lash out at the player who beat me.


I want to preference this post by saying that my actions are unacceptable and I am trying not to justify them. I know what I did was wrong.

I will say a few things I said in the chat because I don’t want to say all the things here for a reason, “your trash” and a plethora of other things.


The reason why I lash out like this is because when I lose my ELO, I worked so hard for it just makes me mad.

It just makes me so upset because I really wanna go for 2000 blitz but just don’t know how to do it.


I have no one to guide me. I have no one who is higher rated than me who could help me figure out what I’m doing wrong in my games. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong genuinely.


I know some of you are going to say “ analyze your games and figure out where you’ve gone wrong”, and into that I say you are correct. But I genuinely don’t know what I’m doing wrong.

I follow chess principles. I develop my pieces. I’m OK tactically.

I just don’t know what could be stopping me from getting my goal. I really want this goal.

I really don’t wanna be discouraged from getting 2000 blitz.


I know I should better my chess psychology, but it’s just genuinely hard to stay calm at this point when you lose a lot of games. One or two, maybe. Three or four then we got problems.


I’m tired of it, I just want you to read this post from the perspective of somebody who’s struggling to get somewhere that they just can’t.


If you took the time to read this, thank you for your time.

Chess can be infuriating. If you find yourself angry DO NOT start another game! Cool off for 15 minutes, analyze the game if you want to, then decide if you want to play again. NEVER start a game of chess with anger in your heart or retribution. You will always lose. Trust me, I know.