damn I’m trash

You're not trash. You beat some people which means you are capable of winning.
You should do some puzzles, review your games at the end and see your mistakes to improve.

Recommendations: take more chess com lessons, they may have knowledge you have missed (especially latter ones); do puzzles (1x daily, 3x normal rated, 1x puzzle rush (survival)) - don't forget to check the solution of puzzles you've failed to solve; don't play blitz/bullet - rapid 15+10 is way to go, take your time thinking

Play longer games (15+10 or 30 minutes if you have time). Blitz and Bullet don't tell you much about how good you are at chess overall and are just for fun except for already high level players.

Also watch some YouTube videos on how to checkmate and avoid stalemates.

I ain't improving at all, and I don't understand how what to do I just do things 😭

This is one of your lost games.

It's hard to believe that this is a game played by a person who takes the game even a tiny bit seriously. You just throw away one piece after the other.

Play longer time controls, use your time and think. Try to play good moves.

Learn and apply the most important principles of chess.
Always blunder-check your moves.
Solve tactics in the right way.
Analyze your games.
Study games of strong players.
Learn how to be more psychologically resilient.
Work on your time management skills.
Get a coach if you can.

It DOESN'T help at all

8 year old kids can play chess.

Some of them can’t even tie their own shoe laces.

Some of them can’t even look over the counter of a Subway restaurant to tell the employees what items they want on their Subway Sandwiches.

They can’t do all those things and yet they can play a game of chess very well.

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Chess isn’t rocket science.

Chess is a very simple game.

If you want to get better, you need to stop screwing up.

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Chess isn’t a team game.

When you lose, you can’t point fingers and blame others for your loss.

When you lose, the only one to blame is yourself.

Hey, I can see the bot matches in your recent games. :brilliant But my bot matches don't show up in recent games. :blunder

I think bot matches only show up if you use the Analysis/Review on them.