I resigned in a winning position again

RIP winning streak. 10's pretty good, I guess.

But why did it have to end like that. Why am I like this. I noticed I was fine the moment I hit the button 💀

That's me for you. Not much of a talker, thanks to social anxiety (and anxiety in general, for that matter), but I can write pretty well if I put my mind to it.

I've actually had quite a few people tell me that I should have a higher rating than I do. It's simply a matter of figuring out why I've been getting nowhere. I've come to realize that the biggest problem with my performance were as follows:

- Not playing aggressively enough

- Not being able to recognize tactics easily

- Having difficulties finding and exploiting blunders

- Playing a bit too slowly and choking due to time trouble (I still do this, unfortunately)

Watching videos from various pro players wasn't doing me good until I found the right one. Now it's like something just clicked in my brain, and I've been on fire ever since. I've been lining people up and knocking them down, with the exception of a small losing streak and my single "derp" moment I mentioned here.

Here's hoping that this continues, and I can maybe reach where some rather generous folks have said I should be at.

I found a relatively new content creator called chesswithakeem. He's a Jamaican CM who posts videos of full games against amateur and occasionally advanced players.

Up until I discovered him, I wasn't really confident with openings. But after watching a few of these videos, I now know how to respond mostly well to the most common ones, as well as what to do when your opponent plays one that's generally considered not good. I also learned ways to be more resilient and aggressive, which has helped me to pick up on opportunities to launch sound attacks a lot better.

As for the first sentence of my post...it can be hard to explain. On most days, thanks to my anxiety, I can usually barely initiate a conversation to save my life. However, my ability to write tends to be a lot better because I don't have to deal with making eye contact and the like.

That's my best attempt at explaining. Hopefully it's good enough 💀 lol

Disable the one-click resign option.