why are you playing at full speed and in a 10 minute game you have already played 13 moves in 20 seconds ???
you have to think before playing otherwise you can't learn!
Already drop the bullets and the blitz it is clearly not for beginners.
play at least 10 minutes, but normally you shouldn't have time to play 30 moves, so 20 or 30 minutes.
It's not enough to make a move, you also have to put yourself in your opponent's shoes and see if they can take a coin from you.
From your games it looks like you are losing on purpose. Not sure if that's actually the case.... if you are in fact not trolling then you need to stop playing speed chess entirely and do some basic lessons and courses that you can find.
It actually does now! Hm. Strange.