Bullet 2000elo addiction!! Should I stop or 2100 goal?



I hate the feeling of be angry about going down and then I play more and more and finally I go 200points under my record!!!
Last 3 years I played almost only bullet. And make some puzzles lessons and review games!
Now that I started playing more blitz, I think so many bullet games help me in blitz! I had 1736record from Jan 2024 and today I just break the record direct to 1789!
I never had such a implement of record points in bullet !

I have account for 13years. Bullet player since 2018.
My goal was reaching 2000elo before making 40years old! I made it this month with 41! I said to myself, that if I reach 2000 I stop at least one year! I pass to blitz 3minutes! Now I wanna reach 2000.
But is so hard don't play a bullet game! Sometime i think maybe I can reach 2100... In other moments I think... If I play I will go down to 1800 and stop playing blitz and again 500games a week... Again and again!!!.
What to do??!?
Any 2000bullet record people, out there??? Can you share your experience?
ive basically quit bullet for 2 years straight. Then I played again, and now I've quit again. I just found it too tiring to play bullet, so I stopped.
I have account for 13years. Bullet player since 2018.
My goal was reaching 2000elo before making 40years old! I made it this month with 41! I said to myself, that if I reach 2000 I stop at least one year! I pass to blitz 3minutes! Now I wanna reach 2000.
But is so hard don't play a bullet game! Sometime i think maybe I can reach 2100... In other moments I think... If I play I will go down to 1800 and stop playing blitz and again 500games a week... Again and again!!!.
What to do??!?
Any 2000bullet record people, out there??? Can you share your experience?