Do you feel different when you play chess every time? I do. I feel like I feel very feral and aggressive when I play chess every time. To me, it's a whole bloodbath of savagery every time that I capture pieces and checkmate for the kill. Does anyone feel like that when they play chess?
For myself every game of chess starts with the vague hope something interesting might happen, followed by a complete disinterest once the game is over and nothing interesting has happened.