i’m not good but i really like this game

There are many ways to improve. A topic which has come up recently is recommended titles. Various people have written general books which cover openings, the middle game and the endgame. Others are more specific, covering development of pieces, positional play, tactics such as pins, forks, skewers, discovered attacks and discovered checks, hanging pieces and more. It's recommended to study the games of masters as well as your own. You could experiment with playing against bots and playing some unrated games too. You mentioned being a loner. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm an introvert and many of my recreational activities don't always involve interacting with other people physically. This website, discussions on others about topics of interest such as politics, current events, hobbies, collecting, history and so on are good ways to spend time too.

If you really like the game then keep on playing! It is worth it if you're having fun. And as you play, you will get better too. Keep on playing and keep on having fun!

you say you don't have a social life, well maybe work on yourself so you can be in a better mindset to play good chess. i know when i'm having a bad day my mind can't focus and i end up playing bad moves

Even if it feels like chess is your only solace right now, your life is filled with possibilities beyond this moment, and there are people and resources available that can help you navigate through this difficult time.