https://www.chess.com/game/computer/302765152?move=44
you will see at the end, i blundered my queen. let me be honest with you. i really did not see that the rook was controlling the square. and that made me so sad. the reason i play odds against bots is that you feel less bad about yourself when losing at these games.
i am a language learning enthusiastic. i am playing chess only for a bit time. i have to admit that there are some levels in chess that you will never achieve. and that is a painful fact. some people cheat to overcome that fact. but my way is to find a better achievable goal and hobby. like learning two or three languages. my real language is persian. i am learning arabic and japanese and english at the same time. if you can't do something, you won't get to do it. so, that is why chess makes people sad. if you are playing out of love, that is fine. but if you are feeling pain when losing, find a better thing to do. like learning proggraming and other stuff. i had a game that once i got a losing position against a 1700, i got really angry. during the game i said to him, i want to annoy him by not resigning, i made the guy to stay until the checkmate which is fine. i was being a sore loser at that point. but i never felt this in language learning experience. let give my experience of losing, the higher rated you are, the more pain you will feel after a loss. because you will look at the tactic that you missed and you call yourself " how did i miss that? where were my eyes, when that move missed?" and so forth.the tactic looks so easy once you look at it after the game. and you will feel that you are an idiot for missing that. but really it is not true. chess is a very difficult game. it is bound to happen. no matter what.