Well, you sound like a pretty intense individual. Try not to take losing so personally. There will always be opponents better than you and me and everybody else. As for the haves, I have learned that true wealth is not determined by a bank account. It is determined rather by the love we share with our family and friends, and how well we conduct ourselves in this life. Peace!
Losing like a winner

Misterboy, I think that's a decent tactic on most low-level players. They screw up the beginning or middle-game and then don't try on the end game. Some people get overly cocky during their initial play and then lose a queen or get mated by not paying attention, even while being a few minor pieces ahead.

Yes, playing music is much more relaxing. Majority of people can't name any famous chess players, but everyone probably knows who Beethoven or Elton John is.

Some days are better than others. It's particularly frustrating when playing a very long game and then one bad move ruins an hour or so of very delicate manuevering. I admit I became very angry after losing two games in a row, since I had watched a video and practiced tactics for about an hour. The only thing that calmed me down was knowing that even if I was bested by these opponents they would still be crushed by a high-rated computer. You have to understand I was getting very belligerent and had to restrain myself from smashing in my computer monitor. Unfortunately, they just played better than me and I wasn't in the mood to be a good sport about it. The one good thing about chess is that it's a game of skill. You both have the same exact pieces to start off with so they just blundered less or saw an opening that I missed. This is one reason why I happen to love chess so much better than economics. People become filthy rich and then get on TV voicing their opinions, in the process so arrogant that they view all poor people as low-life scum who should be left to starve to death on the streets if they get fired, forgetting to mention that they inherited millions from their family. This is the equivalent of someone starting off playing chess with 5 or 6 queens compared to 1 and then scoffing when the opponent loses.