My best games are also my worst games

I think so when I reconsider

I find that most of the time when I'm most happy with a game, my post-game analysis with an engine ends up making me realize how bad of a player I really am

      Your experiencing the nightmares of Tom Brady; every incomplete pass!

The only games I ever end up happy with are the ones where a computer later shows me that some sac I made was completely unsound, but complex enough that my opponent couldn't stave off the attack.  Or alternatively, when as black I find the only way through the thicket bush of an opponent's blistering assault.

Any other kind of game, I feel kind of deflated about having wasted time on once it's in the books.

Perfect games have little to recommend them.