Positivity regarding chess learning

There is not bad levels at chess, just bad sense of anticipation so never feel bad at chess, everybody learn differently and that is just fine !

This is true. But it still often feels bad to lose a lot, be below where most others are, be below where you wantto be, or be making little or no progress. It requires a certain hardness to forget ahead regardless.

It’s weird because I will lose a lot of times then I get matched with lower rated players and I win and that feels good. But after winning some I start losing again. Somehow when I’m winning the site matches me to higher rated players, which is unfair.

That's not unfair, that's exactly how it works.