Hi!

About me: My actions speak for themselves. If you want to get to know me, I might as well warn you ahead of time- I'm like a beautiful garden full of land mines. (Translation: I love being friends with people, but I've had a lot of hurt in my life so sometimes I can get pretty out there. I try to keep my dark side under control though.) Location: For real, is that even a valid question? Come on! I'm The Superintendent of the Universe! (I had to put down International as my location in my settings, cuz this site doesn't list Heaven as a place- dam.)

My favorite chess player ever would be Chigorin, because I can sympathize with his struggles. Chigorin’s personal life didn’t work out for him: He was a loner, although it appeared that he had a family and a daughter. He died among people he didn’t know, almost completely alone, forgotten by the organization for which he’d worked so hard. Me? Almost every time I've ever tried to make lasting friends, it always wound up with me sticking both feet in my mouth grand royal, so that's probably why I'm perpetually lonely. (But that's beside the point- whatever. And besides, my depression and suicidal thoughts will never go away for me until the day comes when I'll finally be at peace.)

My 3 favorite songs ever are New Divide by Linkin Park, Scared of the Dark by XXXTENTACION, Lil Wayne, and Ty Dolla $ign, and NF's song Outcast, cuz it kinda describes me well.

What do those songs mean to me? To me, personally, I like to imagine that New Divide is about me telling you about how I won't hurt you if you don't hurt me, cuz on the one hand, I love people, but on the other hand, actually creating relationships is a scary minefield to me, one that I've never attempted; and Scared of the Dark, well, to be honest, the entire first verse is the absolute best part to me, cuz I love what Weezy has to say about dark times. The rest of the song I don't really care for. And as far as Outcast goes, that one is pretty much self-explanatory.

Oh, and my 2 favorite people here on Chess.com? They would be ChristineCrystalline, cuz we both like Linkin Park, and DelilahPedroza, cuz she's been such a cool blessing to one of my top homies ever, E4orce.

This is a great way to describe E4orce's relationship with @DelilahPedroza: He might have many outwardly visible scars, (His initial personality when you meet him, his defensive posturing in body language, etc.) but she's been really good for him. He hopes he's been that for her too!

E4orce: ..."Don't cry D, I'm on your side..."...

Also E4orce: ..."We're far away, and I miss you girl, every day... take care! Love ya..."...

(P.S. I added the Smash Into Pieces Superhero song cuz I'm just straight up super lonely- I wonder how many other people feel the same way, where all they ever want in life is a friend to be there for them, someone they can be there for too; if that makes any sense. My homie E4orce showed me this one.) xD

My 2 favorite quotes:

"Chess is war over the board. The objective is to crush the opponent's mind." - Bobby Fischer

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