If you can't spell my username or real name just call me Calla

Life motto: "I do this not because it's easy, but because I thought it would be easy."

"People talk about me behind my back and I just sit here like "Wow. I got myself a fan club""

- Someone

"I label myself as a hopeless romantic, as in, it's hopeless that I'll ever be romantic."

- ClawsAndTeeth (YouTube commenter)

How I act IRL:

How I act online:

I:

• know a lot of informational YouTube channels in many fields. You can ask me to recommend some of those

• am probably an INTP-T or ENTP-T

• have multiple interest

• have OCD

• have dermatillomania

• have ARFID

• prob had/have schizoid personality disorder

• had/have sadistic personality disorder

• had/have depression

• have laughing issue

• am a night owl

• don't care about relationship related things

• am straight/heterosexual (I'm sexually attracted to the opposite sex only)

• am byelingual (can speak in Indonesian and English language but started to forget words in both)

• don't know what else to say about myself

My two most dominant cognitive functions (probably)

Ti - Introverted thinking

Independence, autonomy, and personal freedom are among my highest values; some people might even call me a loner. While I have little interest or aptitude in leading or managing others, I also don’t want people controlling me or telling me what to do. When working within a system or organization, I often find myself at odds with it and end up looking for ways to circumvent what I see as unnecessary rules or inefficient methods. This of course can be anxiety-producing, so working for myself is probably my best option. Perhaps more than anything, I want to find work that I enjoy; my work is of utmost importance to me. Unfortunately, finding my ideal work has been difficult due to my strong need for autonomy, as well recurrent indecisiveness about what I should be doing. Efficiency is another of my top priorities. Thinking of time as a currency for accomplishment, I can be rather impatient when it comes to navigating unexpected hurdles or obstacles. Outwardly, I present as easygoing and affable, readily adapting and meshing to the social context. Inwardly, I am far more serious and resolute, constantly thinking about my work or projects and what my next step should be.

Ne - Extraverted Intuition

I have a restless and active (some might even say hyperactive) mind. It is constantly generating new ideas and seeing new connections, associations, and possibilities (“the possibilities are endless!”). I often see random connections or parallels between things that others fail to see or appreciate. I love playing with words, ideas, associations, and quips. Compelled to explore and exhaust all the options and possibilities, I struggle to make decisions or draw firm conclusions. When a promising new idea or possibility comes to me, I tend to get really excited and want to share it with others. Unfortunately, the excitement often wanes once the novelty wears off or the idea proves less tenable. These ups and downs can make it hard for me to stick with one thing or to finish what I start. Since I tend to bounce from one idea and interest to the next, I sometimes wonder if I’ll ever accomplish anything important. I know I have a lot of creative potential, but I often struggle to harness and focus it. Others may see me as quirky, chatty, distractible, inquisitive, creative, unconventional, and open-minded.

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