FaithfulServant

Things are looking up in life. Remember, lift your head, look to the skies, and remember what you’re fighting for. Find joy in the little things and have good goals and things to look forward to. Never hesitate to share God’s great love. Go out there and live like Jesus did.

       Hello there! Welcome to my profile! I am a crazy and awesome kid with ADHD. I am a believer in God. Jesus Loves you!!! He Would Love First! Listen to God, and hear what he has to say. Wherever you are, God is holding your hand throughout it all. He see’s your hurt and your pain. He knows what you hide. You pretend like it never happened. You ignore God and you ignore what you have done. Ask for forgiveness, he has never ending grace, and limitless love. God knows what you have done. You can’t hide from him. So stop running.         

“You’ll never know how much you hate yourself until you’re finally treasured.” I love to write some poetry, so if you do too, then cool! Send me a few of your poems, and I’ll send a few too. I’m a part of this amazing club called CYCT. Christian Youth Chess Team. They are my family in Christ and the best people I know on Chess.com. Do you want advice or someone to listen to you, well you came to the right place! I have a unique gift of staying quiet and listening! I have a lot of favorite songs so I’ll say some of my favorite below and keep adding on as I remember the songs I forgot before.

      My friends from CYCT will be listed below.

Thanks to @Truth-Finder Abri!! Thank you for everything you’ve done. You have gone above and beyond to meet my needs, but now I see I asked too much of you. You don’t have to meet me up there, but you can meet me down here. You are already my best friend and sister. Thank you for everything. Thanks for the moments we shared and the memories we’ve made. I love you with my heart. You set the example I need to put God first in my life. Thanks again.

       The sister of my soul 💗 You are the friend I have been needing for so long! I miss you but I know you need a break  sorry I cracked :/ it’s been a rough and crazy week °_o I’ve been acting like an insane child who has no filter and has given up on caring… so sorry…. Love ya sis! I’m proud to be your friend! Can’t wait to call soon and to be able to spill the tea of my life before it overflows and drowns me. Okay this is getting too dark and I don’t want people to think I’m losing my mind…. Ur mother.

     But seriously, thank you. Thanks for sitting by my side even when I seem to get a good laugh out of making you worry. I am ashamed by the way I’ve acted before but you still push through and love me for who I am. You see past my walls. You see past my insane front. You can see me as the scared kid I am. You don’t look to the distractions I throw your way but you look at me. The puppet master who is only trying to hide in a corner. As funny as it is to joke, you saved me from a lot. I’ve never had such an amazing friend other than God. Sometimes I just want to cry because I know you will always be there for me. Thank you a thousand time over. I love you so much Abri! You are so awesome and amazing! I could go on and on. No seriously. If you need more support I’ve got tons of writing and paragraphs about how much you mean to me. Honestly I could go on and on.

@dogs4evr AYYYYY!! Man, I am so sorry for what’s going on rn all around you. My heart goes out to you and I’m sorry that me and my break has left you alone. I’m always here for you and even when I’m not online I’m still praying for you! God’s got you in his arms and in his heart. Not a day goes by that he doesn’t think of you. I love the Bible verses you send me and it makes me feel so special to know that you did that for me. Even through my crazy moments and just inexplicably wacky decisions. I love that we both have the same taste in music. We can recommend the perfect songs for each other I love ya girl! I miss you sis, the world just isn’t the same without you in it. It all feels so empty, and I don’t think I can ever speak in the chats again without you it feels so unnatural. My heart aches and I wish I could talk to you. God is holding you.

@ABlazingBishop Dude I’m so sorry. As each day passes and I slowly lose my edge… you’ve dealt with my crazy ramblings and creepy stories from the pits of my soul. But in all seriousness, I am forever thankful for you. To be able to have a friend there who cares about me and who will listen to me spill my guts and remind me in simple terms that God is near to me. It’s a relief to be around someone so chill. This world is crazy and chaotic so thanks for telling me to calm down when I spam you XD

@PrecisionGuessWorks I hope I spelled that right… O_O sorry I pulled you into my crazy world but you have my respect for keeping any amount of sanity after listening to me vent. The feeling of knowing I can talk to you about anything is so freeing. Thank you for loving me Jubi  I love you so much! I am always here if you need someone. I can be crazy but I am always ready to help you and I am always ready to support you throughout life.

@ChillyChess2010 Cecilia!! You are a firecracker! Your love and light just bursts out and spreads across my dark night sky. You are so joyful and talkative. Thanks for always reminding me that I mean more than I believe. Words can’t explain it but feelings can. You make me feel like I matter and like I deserve all the good in the world. Even that brings tears to my eyes. Thanks for showing me God’s love.

@Zoe, girl I love you so much! Thank you for entering my life 💕. I’m forever thankful that you look up to me, and that we both can talk about our lives in public schools together. I cannot wait to see what the future has in store, and how much you will grow in the Lord. Love, -FaithfulServant.

@Ilovemygreatfriends, Irene! Girl, I love you so much! I love our nightly chess matches. I love to talk to you about my day and you are such a skilled writer! Like honestly, I haven’t seen such a good writer except in published books. I hope one day to see your name on a book and to be able to buy it and know I got to see you grow in your writing and relationship with God. I want to be your mentor in life and in everything. I love you with a special love a parent or leader has. When the hard times come I want to lift you up and teach you to smile. And when you laugh I want to laugh with you. I want to be next to you through your ups and your downs. Thanks for being you 💗 I love ya girl 🤍

@P-51FLIGHTTEST22 Sorry you’re going through so much right now. My prayers are with you and I hope you can find better friends and that things get better.

Linda! I forgot your user but I will update this sometime soon once I remember! Love u girl! Can’t wait to see you grow in Jesus and grow into the leader you were born to be.

Special thanks to John, Les, Paco, Sam and Melissa (sorry if I spelled that wrong, it doesn’t look right to me XD) for being the best SA’s I know. 👍🏼 kudos to them for putting up with me for so long.

Amy! I hope if you ever come back, you choose to talk to me. There’s a lot I wish I could say to you. You did some awful things and even though I still love you to no end regardless of knowing now that you’re fake, I need to tell you how you hurt me. Because I need to say it to your face. How you could think it’s okay to manipulate me and lie to me like that, I don’t know. But you ruin me.

Brady you are an epic person

Everyone else in CYCT! If you want to be on my bio, feel free to post a note or send me a PM saying so!

Just a huge thanks to all my friends, thank you thank you thank you thank you!!! Thank you! Each and everyone of you! Thank you for loving me with the heart of God and for being patient when I burst and patient when I try to hide myself from your eyes. Especially when I need to be seen. I love y’all so much!!! You mean everything to me! ❤️ -Ur mother (I’m not putting my name in my bio :/ )

Even if we both break down tonight
And you say you hate me, and we go to bed angry
I know everything will be alright
I'll be here waiting, I promise I'm changing
I just need
A little time to show you I'm worth it
I know that I can be a difficult person
I'm a stress case, drive you up the wall when I'm workin'
Actually, I'm probably worse when I'm not, you don't deserve it
Make you nervous 'cause you know I'ma break soon
Every time I do, I say somethin' that hurts you
Actin' like I'm gone, but we both in the same room
I don't like to be wrong, which I know you relate to
And I know I make you feel like you're at the end of your rope
That's when I look at you and tell you I'd be better alone
Just the pride talkin', isn't it? 'Cause both of us know
I'm the definition of "wreck" if you look into my soul
Comes out the most when I feel I'm in a vulnerable place
Made a lot of mistakes I wish I knew how to erase
When I'm afraid, might get distant and I push you away
But no matter the case, I'ma do whatever it takes even if
Even if we both break down tonight
And you say you hate me, and we go to bed angry
I know everything will be alright
I'll be here waiting, I promise I'm changing
I just need

                    Favorite songs!!

Reckless Love by Cory Asbury. The first Christian song that wasn’t meant for kids that I ever heard. It has such a special place in my heart! 

It’s not over yet by For King and Country

Heaven on earth by Stars Go Dim

You Are Loved by Stars Go Dim

You Know Me Better by you guessed it, Stars Go Dim

More songs I love :/

Thrive by Casting Crowns

Brother by Needtobreathe  

Unstoppable God by Elevation Worship

Relaxing songs

Dancing On The Waves by We The Kingdom

The Garden by Kari Jobe

Crashing In by Cory Ausbury.

Some of the songs I just love.

Breakthrough by Red Rocks Worship

Anything by Unspoken, Riley Clemmons, Jordan Feliz, and TobyMac. Jason Gray has a bunch of great songs too. The wound is where the light gets in, what the hard times taught me, and rise again. That’s all I can think of right now, but I’ll keep adding more as I remember them. 
Provider by Cade Thompson and Every Step of The Way by Cade Thompson.

Senses by Equippers Revolution

All Together by Mike Donehey. It’s such a great song!!!!

Already Done by Joel Vaughn

Light it up by For King and Country

Running After You by Riley Clemmons 

Love me Like I Am by For King and Country

Broken Halo’s by For King and Country

Hollyn’s 2017 and 2015 albums are the absolute best!!

CQD


Left says “the smile must fall”

Right says “you are forgiven”

Left tells you how much you hurt

Right tells you to ignore

Left says “ya lost your gift”

Right says “who cares”

Your mind is splitting

Just trying to pick a side

Its okay, they won’t mind

You never were very kind

 Cmon kid, you’re a teen,

you know better than this

Why not just flee

Not like you’ll be missed

Escape to the shadows

Escape in the night

Run for your life

always put up a fight

who cares if it ain’t right

You’ve lost your way, and light

Jump at the door

Fall to the floor

Never enough anxiety so here’s some more

dont forget to do your chores

I want to wade in the water

Feel the waves at the shore

hear fantasies and lore

lands called Mordor

Never watch them any more

Let your head fall against the wall

you should know better

I thought you learned

Re-read those notes you burned

When you’re done, never return

You know what happens when you listen to yourself

You always take the beating

Hang your head in shame

Or maybe another way

Hide behind the backdrops

sit against the pallets

Head falls back towards the lights

Face the air in front of your frights

When you give up

When you let go

You hurt their feelings

You ruin the show

When you stop caring

Is when you betray their trust

The girl who cried wolf

The girl who has lust

The girl named Katie

Who hides behind rhymes

The girl who hides behind fake stories

The girl who wants to cry

Hide in the shadows, never speak

Dont draw attention, be meek

Cave in on yourself

You little twerp

Hide in the corner

Too scared to face life?

Shut your mouth, you ruin it all

They all laugh when you fall

So hide away

See if they miss you