Hi I'm Mia!

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Sometimes you have to take sacrifices to find your true happiness

Im 18 and a very ainti social person I like anime chatting with friends if I'm not that shy and I'm trying to gain followers and friends on this page since this is a fairly new acc. I love playing chess but I'm not good yet but I'm having some help. I'm in high school planning to go to college (idk which one yet)

I am a very good friend lol

I'll be there for you when you need me and I like helping people depends on the issue but I'll try my best if can Im online everyday except for weekends Thats when I have work but I'lll be back Btw I love being challenge even tho I'm not good at all but I'm still practicing my skills everyday I think I know enough to kinda teach someone but only the pieces and how they move I'm still adding to my bio I am a very quiet person so don't expect a really fast reply But I'll be on whenever I'm free in school or basically whenever I can

I'm historically heartbroken
Drowning in my own emotions
One minute away from breaking down, down, down
I'm always leaving empty-handed
No one wants a heart that's damaged
Only know a love that lets me down, down, down, oh
Staring contest with the walls
I'm giving into my intrusive thoughts
What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I fxck it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
Whoa, what if I get to heaven, and it's not even real
And I die before telling you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
That maybe love's not for me
If you don't look too closely
You can't even tell I'm lonely
Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night, night
Tryna keep myself distracted
But I get all these awful habits
Of listening to voices in my mind, mind, mind, oh
Staring contest with the walls
I'm giving into my intrusive thoughts, oh
What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I fxck it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave? Whoa
What if I get to heaven, and it's not even real
And I die before telling you how I really feel
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh
Maybe love's not for me, oh-oh
Maybe love's not for me
Maybe love's not for me
For me, for me, for me
Maybe love's not for me

Give me five Cause I need a minute To get me right See your point of view Before I speak my mind Cause my words never lose (My words never lose) Let’s compromise It takes more than wishing To leave my pride without feelin’ bruised So go and speak your mind I’m confident with you (I’m confident with you) Even though I know We’ll change I'm not gon fight it Cause in the end I know we’ll find a silver lining Feel it in my heart you and me are worth it But there will be days where we’re far from perfect Even if you wake up a diﬀerent person I’m gonna love you through every version Hmmmmmmmmm I’m gonna love you through every version (2x) If you lose your way I’ll be your direction When it hurts like hell We’ll make our own heaven To find a place Where it’s just me and you (just me and you) You’re who I prayed Would find a way Into my life I never knew I wanted you Every inch of you was Made by design It was always you Feel it in my heart you and me are worth it But there will be days where we’re far from perfect Even if you wake up a diﬀerent person I’m gonna love you through every version Hmmmmmmmmm I’m gonna love you through every version (2x) Even though I know We’ll change I'm not gon fight it Cause in the end I know we’ll find a silver lining Feel it in my heart you and me are worth it But there will be days where we’re far from perfect Even if you wake up a diﬀerent person I’m gonna love you through every version

You open up my car door Do little things no one’s ever cared for And I’m not tryna keep score But I got a track record I can’t ignore And yeah you’re being nice now But I already know how this’ll play out Good until you want more I know you’ll only love me till you get bored You say you’re diﬀerent But I’m indiﬀerent i won’t be caught that ignorant I’m unoptimistic Call me pessimistic But I’m gonna get out ‘Fore it comes down Done the analytics Speaking the logistics Yeah I’m gonna leave town ‘Fore we go south Oh you almost had me Your arms wrapped around me You played all your cards just right But I’m unoptimistic Call me pessimistic But I’m gonna get out ‘Fore it comes down (oh) You’re checking all the boxes But I know deep down that you’re toxic So I’mma let the clock tick And when you turn bad, say “I called it” You say you’re diﬀerent But I’m indiﬀerent i won’t be caught that ignorant I’m unoptimistic Call me pessimistic But I’m gonna get out ‘Fore it comes down Done the analytics Speaking the logistics Yeah I’m gonna leave town ‘Fore we go south Oh you almost had me Your arms wrapped around me You played all your cards just right But I’m unoptimistic Call me pessimistic But I’m gonna get out ‘Fore it comes down (oh)

I like being online when I can and meeting many new people as possible

Where were you last night? Never mind, I don't wanna know 'Cause we'll fight and you'll lie Then I'll cry and you pull me close You know I don't love me just enough Stab me with the pain and kiss it numb I don't even know who I've become, hmm You tear me apart but I never leave Got a million scars but they're never that deep This love has sharp edges Ripping out my heart 'til I'm bleeding out Yeah, it's a dark heaven Laying in your arms 'til they let me down I'll lеt you kill me slowly 'Cause I can't let go This lovе has sharp edges But not sharp enough to cut you off It’s tug of war, it’s keeping score, It’s hating being something you adore An underscore of slamming doors A shattered vase of roses on the floor Guess I’m getting used to it, how could I get used to this (oh) Yeah I think I’m losing it, but I don’t know how to quit To cut you off Not sharp enough Sharp edges Not sharp enough to cut you off

I don't wanna call you
I just wanna know how you are, mm
Is it stupid that I miss you
Even after all of these scars? Mm
Met you on a Sunday, broke my heart on Monday
Now it's been a month and I don't think I'm okay
I can't go a whole day without you on my brain
How am I still hung up?
Crazy how a life can change in 24 hours, hey
You just took a look at me and took all of my power, hey
I fell for you all the way to rock bottom
Wish you would keep all the memories 'cause I don't want 'em
We were dancin' 'round the kitchen, now I'm cryin' in the shower
It's crazy how my life can change in 24 hours
Starin' at the clock and
Wishin' I could just fall asleep, oh-ooh
I know that you're not ya
You're never ever thinking of me, hey
I'm alright on Tuesday, lose my mind of Wednesday
It feels like a year now, since I was okay
I can't go a whole day without you on my brain
Will I ever make it out?
Crazy how a life can change in 24 hours, hey
You just took a look at me and took all of my power, hey
I fell for you all the way to rock bottom
Wish you would keep all the memories 'cause I don't want 'em
We were dancin' 'round the kitchen, now I'm cryin' in the shower
It's crazy how my life can change in 24 hours
Met you on a Sunday, broke my heart on Monday
Now it's been a month and I don't think I'm okay
I can't go a whole day without you on my brain
How am I still hung up?
Crazy how a life can change in 24 hours
You just took a look at me and took all of my power, hey
I fell for you all the way to rock bottom
Wish you would keep all the memories 'cause I don't want 'em
We were dancin' 'round the kitchen, now I'm cryin' in the shower
It's crazy how my life can change in 24 hours

Mental disorders I have:

ADHD difficult to focus and prioritize, leading to missed deadlines and forgotten meetings or social plans

bipolar a mental health condition characterized by significant and persistent mood swings between extreme highs (mania or hypomania) and lows (depression)

panic disorder a mental health condition characterized by recurrent, unexpected episodes of intense fear and anxiety, known as panic attacks

narcolepsy a chronic neurological disorder that affects the body's ability to regulate sleep-wake cycles

Trichotillomania is a mental health condition characterized by the recurrent and irresistible urge to pull out one's own hair

Schizophrenia is a chronic brain disorder that affects how a person thinks, feels, and behaves, often characterized by disruptions in thought processes, perceptions, and emotional responsiveness, leading to hallucinations, delusions, and disorganized thinking.
In my head, there's a place where the darkest of shades
Hide their worst parts in me
And I saved what I could, I paid more than I should
But they left hurt in me
Yeah, I know you are my better half
But if I stay, there's no coming back
Now I'll let go of your heart of glass
I wanna save you from all of that
Oh, I'll keep running into nothing with the monster in my head
Oh, I'll keep running, feel it coming, I'm the monster in my head
Hang up calls, number changed
I spend all of my days wishing you were here with me
Knowing that you're okay makes it all worth the pain
I can go to sleep easy
Knowing that you are my better half
But if I stay, there's no coming back
Now I'll let go of your heart of glass
I wanna save you from all of that
Oh, I'll keep running into nothing with the monster in my head
Oh, I'll keep running, feel it coming, I'm the monster in my head
If this is how it ends and our time has come, then let it all burn down
Let our memories rise in the smoke, in the smoke
If this is how it ends and our love is gone, then let it all burn down
Let our memories rise in the smoke, in the smoke
I keep running into nothing with the monster in my head
Oh, I'll keep running, feel it coming, I'm the monster in my head

We speak the same language
But I don't understand you at all
We're on two different pages
And it sucks 'cause it's nobody's fault
Tried to read between the lines
But I still can't read your mind
I'm pretending that we're fine
But I can't lie, can't lie
Truth is, I hate it
Everything's lost in translation
We're in the same room, but it's vacant
There's so much that I wanna say, but I'm holding my breath
Are we worth saving?
'Cause nothing gets through, I can't take it
Tell me, can you hear my heart breaking?
My words always end in regret
So I leave them unsaid
I should tell you I miss you even though you're not gone
I should tell you I love you no matter how far we fall
I don't know how to fix it if I don't know what's wrong
But if I'm being honest, it's getting hard to hold on
Say something, don't have to make sense
We both lose when we're playing defense
Jump in, not scared of the deep end
What are your feeling?
Truth is, I hate it
Everything's lost in translation
We're in the same room, but it's vacant
There's so much that I wanna say, but I'm holding my breath
Are we worth saving?
'Cause nothing gets through, I can't take it
Tell me, can you hear my heart breaking?
My words always end in regret
So I leave them unsaid
Ah, ah, ah, ah (ah, ah, ah, ah)
So I leave them unsaid
Ah, ah, ah, ah (ah, ah, ah, ah)
So I leave them unsaid
Ah, ah, ah, ah (ah, ah, ah, ah)
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
So I leave them unsaid

I'm an angel? Tell me what you mean by that I take it all and I will never give it back I don't feel sorry Every time I see you cry Every time you start I'm waiting for your tears to dry I don't really care And I never will That's the way I am Such a bitter pill I don't really care How my silence kills That's the way I am No, I wasn't born without a heart I wasn't always like this No, watched you break me No, now you blame me No, I wasn't born with all these scars And that's what made me like this No, can you blame me? No I'm a nightmare I know what you mean by that I can't wake up from All these scary dreams I have I don't really care And I never will That's the way I am Such a bitter pill I don't really care How my silence kills That's the way I am No, I wasn't born without a heart I wasn't always like this No, watched you break me No, now you blame me No, I wasn't born with all these scars And that's what made me like this No, can you blame me? No I wasn't born like this But hurt people hurt people I'd rather be heartless Than have my heart in pieces No, I wasn't born without a heart I wasn't always like this No, watched you break me No, now you blame me No, I wasn't born with all these scars And that's what made me like this No, can you blame me? No

Fav songs

i lose more than I gain

I could be happy and broken at the same time

i love to make people happy but break myself

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