So where have I been?

Well, A kind of simple. yet complex explanation.

With so many things I’m doing these days, I’ve been slowly drifting away from this internet version. It’s been getting hard, and I’m kind of still rusty on this part.

Even with all my friends, being on the website has been way harder than I expected. I’m not mad or anything, just a bit… you could say… not believing.

My ELO hasn’t really spiked a lot. It’s just a pattern of wins and losses. It’s one of those factors that have kept me away these days.

I still come here to play with the Variants, but overall, I don’t have that same energy as being a young(er) autistic kid who came here all the time.

I’m almost a teenager now, but with less time to scroll around on the internet (places like here), I just, don’t get as excited as before.

I still (rarely) play games, but usually they are in the variants section. Even in those do I still face my own set of troubles. Spell Chess, Fog Of War, Chaturaji, 4 Player, you name it. While it was fun to win, looking back, they just aren’t… important.

I still have a passion for playing chess. In my area, we have an Elite Chess, that I still go to for learning more tactics. That’s fun and all (I most of the time destroy my opponents), but since my membership is canceled, I only will have a few classes (missed ones) before I can’t really go anymore.

I miss those fun times. I wish I could turn back time and experience the pleasure. I’ve never been more separated by school. It’s educational, but I don’t really get to play Chess as much.

What I’ve achieved is thanks to my friends on this website. Without them, I wouldn’t be in this spot, writing this. Their support is what makes me still have hope in this website.

As of this writing, I’m probably going to become more active on the Forums, and see where that takes me. I hope that I can revive my destiny on this site.

— Written by TaterTotAxolotl, 2026. I’m still visiting to review the past. Just message if you want any attention from me. I’ll be happy to respond.