"𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒖𝒎 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕, 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔. 𝑨𝒎𝒆𝒏."

—𝒀𝒖𝒋𝒊𝒏 𝑵𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐

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What is depression? Depression is serious medical mental illness that causes persistent sadness, emptiness, or loss of interest in activities. Depression is not just a mere state of sadness. It is not a sign of weakness or a condition that can be "snapped out of".

Common effects are headaches, vomiting, diarrhea, fever, chills, abnormal heart palpitations, fatigue, nausea, anxiety, stress, difficulty focusing, difficulty sleeping, difficulty breathing, difficulty eliminating wastes, low energy, loss of appetite, decreased motivation, decreased libido, decrease tolerance, increased sensitivity, decreased sensitivity, weight gain, weight loss, intrusive thoughts, suicidal thoughts, thoughts of self harm, thoughts of harming others, confusion, indifference to loved ones, indifference to one’s own self, trouble reasoning, trouble validating feelings of self and others, feelings of hopelessness, strong and uncontrollable feelings of sadness, loss, and distress, imbalanced hormones, hypertension, heart failure, stroke, seizure, forgetfulness, dementia, muscle atrophy, brain atrophy, cognitive deterioration, physical pain, and death.

Depression is highly individualized and varies significantly between people, presenting differently based on personal circumstances. While persistent sadness is common, others may experience anger, irritability, physical pain, or emotional numbness instead of, or in addition to, low mood.

Always consult someone you trust before becoming depressed.

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Psalms 31:7

“I will be glad and rejoice in thy mercy: for thou hast considered my trouble; thou hast known my soul in adversities;”

𝕹𝖆𝖐𝖊𝖉 (𝖓𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖊𝖉)(𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌)(𝖉𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌) 𝖔𝖓 𝖆 𝖈𝖗𝖔𝖘𝖘 𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖊𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌 (𝖔𝖚𝖙) 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖜𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖗.

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1. After this opened Job his mouth, and cursed his day.

2. And Job spake, and said,

3. Let the day perish wherein I was born, and the night in which it was said, There is a man child conceived.

4. Let that day be darkness; let not God regard it from above, neither let the light shine upon it.

5. Let darkness and the shadow of death stain it; let a cloud dwell upon it; let the blackness of the day terrify it.

6. As for that night, let darkness seize upon it; let it not be joined unto the days of the year, let it not come into the number of the months.

7. Lo, let that night be solitary, let no joyful voice come therein.

8. Let them curse it that curse the day, who are ready to raise up their mourning.

9. Let the stars of the twilight thereof be dark; let it look for light, but have none; neither let it see the dawning of the day:

10. Because it shut not up the doors of my mother's womb, nor hid sorrow from mine eyes.

11. Why died I not from the womb? why did I not give up the ghost when I came out of the belly?

12. Why did the knees prevent me? or why the breasts that I should suck?

13. For now should I have lain still and been quiet, I should have slept: then had I been at rest,

14. With kings and counsellors of the earth, which built desolate places for themselves;

15. Or with princes that had gold, who filled their houses with silver:

16. Or as an hidden untimely birth I had not been; as infants which never saw light.

17. There the wicked cease from troubling; and there the weary be at rest.

18. There the prisoners rest together; they hear not the voice of the oppressor.

19. The small and great are there; and the servant is free from his master.

20. Wherefore is light given to him that is in misery, and life unto the bitter in soul;

21. Which long for death, but it cometh not; and dig for it more than for hid treasures;

22. Which rejoice exceedingly, and are glad, when they can find the grave?

23. Why is light given to a man whose way is hid, and whom God hath hedged in?

24. For my sighing cometh before I eat, and my roarings are poured out like the waters.

25. For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, and that which I was afraid of is come unto me.

26. I was not in safety, neither had I rest, neither was I quiet; yet trouble came.

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- You do not know me.

- Neither do you understand me.

- I cannot think like I could before.

- I cannot feel like I could before.

- I am the problem.

- I want to be happy again.

- I am the blood.

- I am only truly happy when I cry.

- I cannot cry.

- I cannot be happy again.

- I feel the pain when I think.

- I feel the pain when I progress.

- I feel the pain when I laugh.

- I feel the pain when you laugh.

- I feel the pain when I organize.

- I feel the pain when I love.

- I cannot talk to you.

- I feel the pain when I breathe.

- I cannot breath.

- I cannot remember you.

- It's been a year.

- I am sorry.

- I loved you. alot.

- I cannot be sorry.

- I am not the same.

- I am different.

- I am indifferent.

- it hurts alot

- it hurts all the time

- it hurts everywhere

- I am the sickness.

- I am the pain.

ᶠᵒʳ ʸᵒᵘ--ᶠᵒʳ ᵐᵉ- ..ᶠᵒʳ ʸᵒᵘ.

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐦:

Some of you may be wondering why I haven’t replied to your comments/questions/etc. I didn’t reply because I have been offline, don’t check my notifications much. There is an 99.9% chance I didn’t reply because I haven’t even read your message.

I cannot think like before and I do not want to cause problems by answering incorrectly. With myself nor you. Everything is one. The answer is above. You are the answer. Ask the right questions.

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but maybe i just love this hell too much

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