In life we all defer at various times to those we believe possess greater expertise than ourselves. Whether it's a medical opinion, crossing a bridge over a deep gorge or climbing aboard a plane, we place trust in others to have a superior understanding of the detail of the subject.
Medical specialists get diagnoses right and avoid harming their patients the great majority of the time, bridges collapse only rarely and air travel is astoundingly safe.
If we are prepared to trust such people with expert knowledge in their fields, why not those in the field of OOL? Until researchers, as a collective body, announce that no natural cause of the emergence of life on earth can ever be found, I will continue to believe that a natural cause is at least possible.
I understand that there're some dissenting voices but that's to be expected in a field as problematic as this.
You are still choosing who to listen to how is that any less of a judgment call looking directly at the evidence yourself? The only thing you have done is remove yourself from the equation of understanding, for the ability to say some nameless group of people believe this not that.
But you hven't examined that either! If we're talking about the minutiae of cell chemistry and the complex interactions between the various components of organisms, I think I might know slightly more than you but we're both unqualified to make generalised conclusions about the origin of life.