I'm seriously considering to quit chess

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Today, I decided that since I have some free time, I'll dedicate it to play and improving in chess. Instead, my chess skills worsened, my confidence is gone, and I'm left physically fatigued, psychologically devastated and mentally scarred. 

I played a total of 25 Rapid 10+0 games today, over the duration of 5 hours with some breaks and puzzles in between. My record is 9/1/15 and I'm now down by 49 elo. This is not just elo loss, but one of the worst tilts and chess struggles I've experienced. The ones I showed in my "I honestly need help with Chess" forum are only the beginning, as I went on to play much more than that. But this feeling of trying your hardest to improve, yet unable to, and forever fluctuating in a specific rating range is brutal. In any case, I'm now mentally destroyed and my self-confidence and self-worth just hit rock bottom. This is not just psychological btw. In fact, after playing my 25th game I physically felt extremely sick. I was exhausted, worn out, nauseating, had a severe headache, no appetite, wanting to throw up, weak and drowsy. This is the very first time chess had physical consequences for me. I'm feeling better now after eating a little and taking a shower, but even though I'm physically recovering, I'm still mentally incapacitated. Therefore, I'm seriously considering to quit chess.

 

 

Avatar of HeisukeKogami

btw why is chess.com not allowing me to post the rest of this

Avatar of HeisukeKogami

I'm definitely going to take a break from chess grind, but now I'm considering quitting chess altogether. I don't know yet, but I'll decide when I'm more functioning. That's it, thank you for reading.

Avatar of HeisukeKogami

btw chess.com is not allowing me to write the last part of this post and I gtg bed so I'll leave it at that.

Avatar of Mr_Giyu_San

I understand. I've actually been through a 100 ELO blitz tilt but I'm still trying.

Avatar of Da_goodDoc

chess is deadly💔💔

Avatar of Supergamer4799

Would you still remain active online here as well as play casually, at least unrated few? I mean you must've started chess because you enjoyed lot as most begin their hobbies. You when you must discovered a game exists called chess mostly likely didn't even know about rating

Avatar of sebas1228

@HeisukeKogami, man for that i say take with calm, the efect you have is for tired, the brain is a muscule, if use a lot the accuracy down, take a break of one day and in ones days can become improve, the chess is slow, if don't can support then leave the chess is not for you, but if can put in condition again and improve you, is for you. if you follow in one days can recovery your elo, but if leave for months then is need come back to 1500 from 1400 or 1300.

Avatar of Detective_101
HeisukeKogami wrote:

btw why is chess.com not allowing me to post the rest of this

Maybe you reached the word limit?

Avatar of Tengen_Uzuui

I would recommend watching Daniel naroditsky videos they change your perspective on chess it helped me when I considered quitting chess but I persevered and hit 1000 elo

Avatar of Ale_Miranda

Remember to take breaks, playing more 15 games sounds more than enough for you. Consider reduce the number of games. Idk, I play like 2 or 3 games per day while other people play like 10 o 5 games per day. You know your own limits

Avatar of ShunsuiClaw

I am sorry to hear about it, I think that resting your mind and resting your body is the best course of action, I wouldn't worry about quitting chess until you are better and even so, I am sure that you can play well if you give your mind some break time in between and study some games from grandmasters or watch Hikaru play, you should become more aware of things but I am sorry that you are suffering.

Avatar of mellancholia

if you quit after first failure, you ll never learn anything

Avatar of Ale_Miranda
mellancholia wrote:

if you quit after first failure, you ll never learn anything

So agree with that