guys I think we all need to take some distance, I know it's not 'just a game' for many of us but thing is, life's more than chess. Take some time away from it, make life enjoyable with some other relieving activities, sadly chess isn't the most relaxing hobby there is, so it might be a good idea to complement it with something a bit more calming. I do mountainbiking, and with that I can have an empty mind, almost dying everytime also gives some sense of relief once you get back in the car xD, I think something along those lines, if not sports, maybe something that allows you to breathe and empty your mind, like singing or meditation, might help a lot.
I'm sorry you're not having the best time now, I do hope it gets better, count on me if you all need someone to talk to
I just screamed and cried so much like I've never screamed and cried before... because of a queen blunder...
Dude, I've reached 2182, 2185, 2192, 2195 three times, 2194, I literally had seven chances to get 2200 blitz, and I'm just not getting it, I'm just choking, and now I get hit with a seven game losing streak...
I'm so tilted, this is all I do everyday, just play chess praying I can overcome that one obstacle... and yet I'm beating myself up, screaming everywhere, hitting walls, throwing stuff around every loss... seems like myself March last year lol, I thought this devastating overreaction would've just gone away or something
I wished I never knew chess was a thing in the first place... my world was probably so much happier without chess... I hate chess, why do I lose so much, it makes me want to rip myself apart into pieces
There's a strong chance that we over value particular round numbers just because they look good and they feel like natural goals, which takes away from the achievement of surpassing a new rating peak or getting to a point around it.
Also look for the positives here:
#1 you've reached this near 2200 several times so you're likely to get to this point again
#2 the more times you achieve this the more likely you will pass it. Even if you would win only 10% of these games then you've always got a chance of getting that last win.
#3 since it sounds like you're not playing your natural game in these pressure situations its not your chess that you need to control.
The good news is that you are nearly there and passing this goal should happen at some point, just make sure that you achieve this in a positive way.
It also sounds like you're not enjoying your chess so it might be worth taking either a short break (perhaps just play some unranked for a few days, play something you wouldn't normally play?) or taking a short pause on your goal to focus on changes that will help.
When you are ready to pass 2200 it will happen but trying to force it will only give you stress rather than noticing how significant the achievement of reaching the heights you already have are.