(Vals chapter 1) Emotions.

They are big and strong, mighty and scary. But When It comes to needing them.... I'm blank? why can't it be normal, Why can't I feel like the little kid I used to be?  Emotional events have made Their way seeping slowly down into The heart, Given a chance to take them back from the dead or evil wont happen... Will it? No. I have some friends that I love and care for dearly Always making me smile but It always comes to an end when we fight. when we get mad, It feels like I'm in hell I have always tried to stay calm It makes me cry, feeling Like a little person In a big crowd. I've given myself a chance to get rid of Emotion entierly and It almost worked. I am stuck with love anger and fear, but why cant I feel sad? Why must I be stuck in a void of people who don't feel safe? (Not talking about my friends btw) Why am I trapped with so much hate, fear and lust? Lord forgive me for I have sinned. But why must I feel like constantly quiting, giving up all hopes and dreams, for what? some silly feeling? No. I must stand tall for those who need it. I must stand tall for those who cry and break and crack with no shoulder other then friendship. I will always be there for someone to cry, 

(I accidently posted it so Ima do the rest) Will I show my true Self? Fuck no. I will be made fun of showed that I am wrong, But Will I stand strong? Yes. I have lived with this gut wretching feeling of despair and hopelessness, For years I have cried, for years I have sobbed to others about my pain, Gettign shut down "Oh shut up Eclipse Your such a selfish faker whos a attention seeker" YES I crave attention, All humans do, You sound ashamed of me, like I'm a doll. Lord give me back sadness and trust I beg of thee.

LUST?!!!!?!?!??!??!?!?!??!

DON'T ASK

WHY IS THAT WHAT YOUR FOCUSED ON-

Thats the snd most thing that mattered-

Second?