Where would you be without a computer? I am just not convinced you could handle this as black. I would probably draw you if you had best play. Did you notice the evaluation doesn't really fluctuate from -1? After 25 moves, it can't change that number. That means there's drawing possibilities.
when an engine in high depth says you are worse than a pawn down as white , (on simple natural moves!), there is virtually no room for disagreement.
they are not even any traps or anything. all black has to keep in mind is not to go 0-0 into that rook file which is prettty obvious. go for 0-0-0. protect your d pawn and develop. there is zero equality here. black is just much better.