imo you are headed in the wrong direction looking for a sharper, dare I say cheaper, opening. Sharp openings in general won't help your chess. They are simply based on memory. Sharp, nonsensical mainlines that don't obey normal chess principles are the worst and a waste of time studying.
You should have been trying to understand all that theory, and likely you don't because if you did you wouldn't be complaining and would have a higher rating. Chess only becomes a game of memory when you're extremely good.
Hello,
I used to play a lot in tournaments at about fide 1800-1900, but haven´t played in years.
I spent a lot of time memorizing opening theory from books and even used chess engines to double check my openings after every game. Eventually i had about 30+ pages of theory for a positional Sicilian defence, where most lines would only give me a very small advantage.
I started playing again recently and now that I look at all that theory it just seems stupid. Why am I memorizing mountains of info just not to get killed and at best get a small advantage?
Thus, I feel it would be much smarter to maybe learn a new sharper opening, where memorizing lines will help me get a big advantages and avoid big mistakes.
Any suggestions on what openings to learn as black or comments on the pain you have gone through over the years by memorizing theory? :)