The deeper question, is are you wasting your life learning and playing chess, or should we all be doing something with a meaningful impact in the world?
I don't know what hemorrhoids are (god, that is hard to type!) but sounds like something nasty haha
I've been playing the French almost exclusively for many years. Its definatley worth studying and learning. The only drawback I've had with the French is that if white knows what hes doing, then without ample theoretical knowledge of some of the more cut-throat lines (winawer & tarrasch) it's easy to get crushed. However, your opponent wont always play 1.e4 and there are plenty of other defenses you can play to get an overall better understanding of certain positions. I've always preferred 1.d4 (or similar variants) as white, so naturally its nice to play the French because it feels like I can play a unique defense system (almost by force) without spending time learning to play against openings I dont use.
1. Majority of games in Winawer French is a loss for computer chess. In TCEC or Cccc Leela vs Stockfish games , SF lose approx 65- 70% of games by playing black . I mean, if Stockfish cant survive, black can barely survive in winawer theoretically.
2. Not all french lines are bad, there are other solid Ftench lines.
3. You can also play Caro Kan and lead white player into your prepared lines.
Raise your hand if youre playing a 4000 rated opponent?
Statistics are an important factors, Neural Network, Leela, learn chess by using Statistics ( e.g by choosing opening lines with > 55% win rate). I choose engines's statistics to minimize the player's rating influence on outcome of game.
As the game outcome is determined by
1. Player A elo
2. Player B elo
3. Absolute state of position
But if you neglect the third factor, you will likely get bad outcome in long run.