Most here know you and respect you here Kohai (especially all the Live players), and we don't like seeing you suffering... you give a lot to the site, not just in your working hours, but even after hours you still keep giving... so we are all feeling for you right now... and I believe it is good to cry, get it all out... even if you do cry for a long time... your happy memories of your mum will help you smile again later, that I can promise you... but I know now it's hard to...
Deepest Sympathies to Kohai
Hey Julie,
I know that we have had our difficulties in the past, but i want you to know that if you are ever in need of someone to talk to or just to kick from live chess, i am always here. :)
I understand how it feels to lose a parent and no words can explain the loss in which one has endured. All i can say mate, is spend this time with your family, remember the good times you have had with your dearest mother, and celebrate the great life in which she has lived.
After all she did give birth to a loving wife, a caring, compasionate, and overall great human being. Someone who if i can strive to be half as good as i know i will be just fine.
My condolences to all of your family, and friends.
Josh.

Dear kohai,
I am very sorry for your loss. I hope you and your family stay close to face and soon recover from this blow. We all are going to follow the path your mom did; she's just a little ahead of us.
[warm hugs]

Dear Kohai,
May you find comfort among all of us who mourn your loss. May you fine comfort in the warm memories you will always cherish.

I can't begin to know how much pain you are in but I do know how it feels like to watch a loved one slip through your hands, and you can't do anything about it. My Grandfather has several medical conditions which is the result of decades of smoking. It won't be long before I feel what you are feeling right now. I can only hope to accept his passing and look back on all the memories and experiences that I have had the joy to share with him. You have my deepest condolences.
~ John

I have not gotten to know you too well so far, and I'm not pretending to know how you feel, but please don't be offended if I, as a complete stranger, offer the deepest condolences I can wish upon unknown.
"For all their faults. I am passing out. O
bitter ending! I'll slip away before they're up. They'll never see.
Nor know. Nor miss me. And it's old and old it's sad and old it's
sad and weary I go back to you, my cold mother, my cold mad
mother, my cold mad feary mother, till the near sight of the mere
size of her, the moyles and moyles of it, moananoaning, makes me
seasilt saltsick and I rush, my only, into your arms. I see them
rising! Save me from those therrble prongs! Two more. Onetwo
moremens more. So. Avelaval. My leaves have drifted from me.
All. But one clings still. I'll bear it on me. To remind me of. Lff!
So soft this morning, ours. Yes. Carry me along, taddy, like you
done through the toy fair! If I seen her bearing down on me now
under whitespread wings like she'd come from Arkangels, I sink
I'd die down over her feet, humbly dumbly, only to washup. Yes,
tid. There's where. First. We pass through grass behush the bush
to. Whish! A gull. Gulls. Far calls. Coming, far! End here. Us
then. Finn, again! Take. Bussoftlhee, mememormee! Till thousendsthee.
Lps. The keys to. Given! A way a lone a last a loved a
long the..."

I'm notoriously poor at sentimentality, but if it's all the same I'll give it a shot. I don't your mother but I'm reasonably sure she was a good person, so that leads me to believe that she is in a better place where she no longer has to endure the burdens associated with life. She just gets to enjoy the positives now. I suppose that's one way to look at it, hope it helps a little.
-7X
I know we don't know each other but I just wanted to say that my thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time.