I’m so f tired


What was it you failed to do? You should be PLAYING for FUN and RELAXATION. Were you planning on making a career out of chess?
Play, don't get worked up about your losses, analyse them and see if you can get better over time. Being frustrated won't help you learn, being stressed will prevent you from learning also.
Some other advice. Watching Pro Chess might not help, some of the stuff they do will be way over your head. You could watch a speedrun by Eric Rosen or Dan Nadoritsky perhaps. One in which they play at your level and explain why they are making the moves they do.
What was it you failed to do? You should be PLAYING for FUN and RELAXATION. Were you planning on making a career out of chess?
Play, don't get worked up about your losses, analyse them and see if you can get better over time. Being frustrated won't help you learn, being stressed will prevent you from learning also.
Some other advice. Watching Pro Chess might not help, some of the stuff they do will be way over your head. You could watch a speedrun by Eric Rosen or Dan Nadoritsky perhaps. One in which they play at your level and explain why they are making the moves they do.
Eric Rosen? Yeah watch him with his stafford gambit, a real f waste of time, just like him.

There are 4 main pillars of chess you need to understand.
1.Openings, well analyzed first couple of moves that lead the way to your plan.
2.Tactics, short term operations that mate, earn material, or give an advantage.
3. Endgames, theoretical ideas are tactics that can be applied to most end of game positions to secure a win/draw.
4. Imbalances, (the less known of the 4) imbalances are the differences in positions. Understanding imbalances is the gateway to plans, you must be able to recognize certain weaknesses and advantages in all possible positions, you can do this by understanding imbalances.

1. Plenty of good free content on YouTube and chess.com to create an opening repertoire.
2. Puzzles, as well as learning mating patterns and studying some tactical ideas in the practice section of lichess is very helpful.
3. YouTube, as well as chess.com has plenty of free endgame study material.
4. “How to reassess your chess” By Jeremey Silamin is a great first step. Once you’ve read that book deeply and understand the ideas you can do “positional” chess puzzles and study.
Hopefully quitting chess will be enough for him to stop inflicting self harm.
Maybe he will realize it isn't the chess that needs help; it's his sense of self worth
Sadly I doubt it.

There are 4 main pillars of chess you need to understand.
1.Openings, well analyzed first couple of moves that lead the way to your plan.
2.Tactics, short term operations that mate, earn material, or give an advantage.
3. Endgames, theoretical ideas are tactics that can be applied to most end of game positions to secure a win/draw.
4. Imbalances, (the less known of the 4) imbalances are the differences in positions. Understanding imbalances is the gateway to plans, you must be able to recognize certain weaknesses and advantages in all possible positions, you can do this by understanding imbalances.
I love watching 1200s speak like they know something about chess.

My only advice would be to play daily games for a while and really think about every game, every move. What you learn from study has to be given a chance to sink in outside of competition. If you go back to competition after just a little study, the pressure will cause you to make the same moves you were making before. You need to slow the pace down and really appreciate the complexities of the game.

I don't see any wrongs with what 1200s really said.
Said by the account that was made 2 hours ago to go on this forum.

Yes, it is 100% something with my self-worth. But how a psychotherapist can fix it really? I mean you can prompt ChatGPT and see the same stuff what would a psychotherapist tell you. Maybe he will give you pills and you will feel the high for a few moments but it doesn't change the truth, and the truth is - you are a loser, you can't calculate, you can't look ahead a few moves, you fail at placing your 32 pieces at 64-squared board. All I see is being humble with who you are (piece of sh...) but you have to live with it for the rest of your life... The rest of your life... It sounds scary...
Respectfully, no one asked for your degrading take. If all you can contribute to this discussion is further hurting the OP's mental health then you can leave.
Firstly, ChatGPT is not a human, it's a robot. Humans have perspective, emotion, and experience. all crucial things in helping someone else overcome their struggles that AI cannot yet do.
Secondly, no one ever progressed in chess with the mentality that their progress was fixed to their "natural ability". There is no "natural ability". The OP just has to try more, focus more, and work harder until his goals are achieved. Maybe focus entirely on tactics and actively playing rapid games as a start.
What the f is wrong with me. I watch pro chess, I solve puzzles, trying to improve, but this is a disaster. People play chess blindfolded, I play blinded. Every lose is too painful, I cry, I self-harm myself, I just sit there completely in pain, waiting for it to go away and crying. And I don’t want to quit, I just want to play well, I don’t know what I have to do. It hurts. I feel worthless, I feel issapointed with myself. And it hurts even worse realising that I won’t be able to study it for more time to achieve what I want and be damned to play like a stupid idiot with no brain forever.