@LuemmelHosenmatz87 Hello!
I deff have a complex when it comes to improvement. It doesn't feel great when you're stuck. Believe it or not, I'm actually not very competitive. I don't really care, or want to be better than anyone, in a game it's never fun when your opponent is superior. I just want to know that I'm playing better.
@Sebu13 Hello!
I'm having trouble asking myself those sorts of questions because unlike the computer, I can't see 8 moves ahead. I think my brain doesn't work normally. That being said, I played a few games today, I think I'm doing better? I lost one because I missed free material and that's just a skill I'll just need to work on. But I'm starting to think more about ideas. I just played against another weird opening, which I only know is the Sicilian because it was a queens gambit show thing, and a I've skipped every Sicilian video that's been suggested to me on YouTube. I don't know what you're supposed to do in response, but I was thinking about what they wanted, and what I wanted which strangely changes the game from a scary structured checklist to a game of opposing ideas.
I made some pretty big mistakes in this game: https://www.chess.com/game/live/165552079554
One of the best moves for my opponent on Move 9) would have been to play Nc6 which I was thinking about, sadly I didn't know how to deal with it if they had played it. But the analysis tool did point out that if they did block their bishop, I wouldn't have to be afraid of the followup move Be3 I also made another huge mistake in this game, with my later attacking idea of sacking my Bishop on Move 11) The computer says that was a losing game. But what's neat is the analysis tool suddenly shows the strength of ideas, not just "This move is best" I might be brainwashing myself but I'm out of alternative ideas.
@Weavery1 That's a huge point, it's so damaging to have people I need something then a random comment saying I don't.
How about this approach:
You play to have FUN in the first place and rating is a side effect
. Yes, losses don't feel good, it shows you care but how about not analyzing anything after the game for the next 10 games - do your best, try to play well, try to understand at what the opponent is doing, if it works, great, if it doesn't, so what - you could enjoy a hobby without pressure or paying money.
When you have managed to do that, go back to analyzing but only 1 mistake per game... take it from there and remember that a hobby is not worth your time if you overly stress yourself out over it. Peace