Me too
board visualization

try turning on the confirm each move setting, lots of time after i make a move i realize its a blunder so i can cancel the move. its an overpowered setting for low elo , i reduce my blunders a ton by using that setting. just remember to turn it off when u are low on time

There are special exercises for this. However most require you to use a real chessboard and pieces. Unfortunately I do not have any links to what can help you except *paid* courses and books, though I'm sure free versions exist or can be "acquired", since many people know that not everyone can pay for lessons or buy books.
But to get you started, you need to be able to tell the difference, *blindfold* between a dark and light square on a chessboard, e.g. if someone says "what color is square XYZ", you should be able to answer this within 10 seconds.
This is essential not only for visualizing diagonals (squares of the same color) but for knight moves also, as knights alternate colors.

mostly consistent practice and playing help me, just getting used to the board to understand the position without too much calculation.
There are special exercises for this. However most require you to use a real chessboard and pieces. Unfortunately I do not have any links to what can help you except *paid* courses and books, though I'm sure free versions exist or can be "acquired", since many people know that not everyone can pay for lessons or buy books.
But to get you started, you need to be able to tell the difference, *blindfold* between a dark and light square on a chessboard, e.g. if someone says "what color is square XYZ", you should be able to answer this within 10 seconds.
This is essential not only for visualizing diagonals (squares of the same color) but for knight moves also, as knights alternate colors.
i have access to a library, if there's any books in particular you'd recommend let me know. i'll work on being able to identify light and dark squares without having a board in front of me. thanks.

There are special exercises for this. However most require you to use a real chessboard and pieces. Unfortunately I do not have any links to what can help you except *paid* courses and books, though I'm sure free versions exist or can be "acquired", since many people know that not everyone can pay for lessons or buy books.
But to get you started, you need to be able to tell the difference, *blindfold* between a dark and light square on a chessboard, e.g. if someone says "what color is square XYZ", you should be able to answer this within 10 seconds.
This is essential not only for visualizing diagonals (squares of the same color) but for knight moves also, as knights alternate colors.
i have access to a library, if there's any books in particular you'd recommend let me know. i'll work on being able to identify light and dark squares without having a board in front of me. thanks.
You will have to search for this stuff. I am 100% sure there are free courses with instructions, but the one I have is from "international chess school" as part of their main course. Just do some searching, I'm sure you will find some results that don't cost anything (unfortunately I don't know any or I would post them).
i'm not great at visualizing the board before i make a move. i can think about a move for a full minute, and then about 2 seconds after making the move i'll immediately see that it's a mistake or a blunder. any exercises or suggestions that can help with this?