I'm thankful that I never worry about getting better. I got to 733 rapid in 12 games and am comfortable in the 400-500 elo range in blitz. Try playing like I do: treat every game as an adventure, to try many different things even if it results in a heavy loss.
I have to admit, sometimes I like losing heavily, when my opponent takes away all my pieces because I like to play until checkmate. xD I'm really glad I have no ambition or the will to put in more effort as I have to take certain medication that clouds my mind and makes calculating impossible.
Sometimes I'm also having a good laugh in many games, for example once I had 3 pawns in a row on the board on the d-file I called them pawn cactus. :-D or when I put a bishop above my knight I say: look the horse is wearing a hat! Or pawn above knight: unicorn and so on. Try having fun while playing, it's the most important thing.
ive played about 9 games and lost every single one im so bad at chess idk what to do how do i get better