I don't think about my moves

I just walk into forks, hang my pieces. I see them as soon as I drop the pieces

I know I will be better if I train, the more I play, but I just can't focus on one 20 minute game, I think about other things because I don't even consider the possibility of loosing or having to actually think about my moves to win

it makes me sad, angry and frustrated. why can't I after 300 or so games just not see the forks? am I this stupid? why do I hang my pieces, twice in a row - because I possibly cannot think it could happen, and because I CONFIDENTLY and without EXAMINATION place my pieces out of my arrogance.

1000elo is the average. I am not even close. I am like a monkey who just place piece here and there until I win.

I just want to win without the effort of learning, but my tiny brain and spacial awareness gives me pain each and every game I play. I just want to be good without doing the work. I just want god to have given me the ability to do things without having to earn them - how arrogant and stupid is it to want such things. but it's like wanting water, or to be able to breath, I cannot accept a life without it, and it seems absurd that I must work to achieve those things ( not hanging or walking into forks ). it feels like I such abilities should be a natural thing, a birth right, and when I can't, I feel as if I am mentally handicapped / stupid ( I would use the r word here ).

conclusion: because I am not willing to accept that I am terrible at chess and put some work into it, and change my attitude when I play, I should just quit. chess just isn't for me.

I am a dopamine addict. I just want easy wins. I'll probably come back to play again. I don't want to.

You're not stupid, you're just not training. Unfortunately no one can improve in chess without training/study, even if the guy in question is a genius, he won't go far without any study, this game is deeper than it seems. And if you want to get better at seeing forks, I recommend you to do a lot of puzzles with this pattern, and to force yourself to think before every move, try to look at every piece and think if there's a good move for any of them. I'm a beginner but I feel that puzzles helps a lot with this, and top players are that good because they know a lot of patterns, that's because they put a lot of effort, not just because they're smart, chess itself isn't a "smartness measure", Oppenheimer was a bad chess player, is he dumb? And if you really feel that you're having a concentration problem, the best thing to do is search for a psychologist, maybe it's something serious, I dunno. But chill, everything will be fine, you can improve more than you think

The problem isn't "I don't think about my moves". It's "I don't think about my opponents moves". Always attempt to predict your opponents move as a last step before making your own move. If done every single move, the forks and hanging pieces will disappear.

it is a lack of visualization skill if you see forks only after moving your piece.

the deeper you visualize the better.

Play longer time controls. Took me for ever to come around to doing this because I enjoy rapid for the adrenaline. It works though.

Improving at chess is usually not easy. If you can afford few lessons, I would advise getting a coach. I can teach you how to think during the chess game. After that, your progress is inevitable.

If you can't afford any lessons, here is the excerpt from very good article on how to improve:

Play a lot, analyze your games, and primarily study tactics. Your knowledge of openings, endgame, middlegame, etc. will come from analyzing your games and going over grandmaster games. Only study one of those specific topics if it is clear you are specifically losing because of that topic.

Source: https://www.gautamnarula.com/how-to-get-good-at-chess-fast/

Here is the great YT series from my channel to learn from as well: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLUrgfsyInqNa1S4i8DsGJwzx1Uhn2AqlT

Good luck either way!

Hmm...I agree. However, an arrogant person will succeed. You were just like me last time, cocky and always thinking I'm "one of the best", which just made me not learn any of my mistakes. It's not an easy lesson to learn, but I hope you will get to that point someday. Good luck in your journey though.

And you are not terrible at chess. Haha.