I keep gaining elo and then losing a bunch

Improving Your Chess - Resources for Beginners and Beyond.....

https://www.chess.com/blog/RussBell/improving-your-chess-resources-for-beginners-and-beyond

I have the best mentality one can have: even losing can be positive and give inspiration. I never set myself goals, means no pressure and no expectations. I have no elo anxiety. I am able to enjoy chess and see it as an adventure. I don't care about improving drastically. (having to battle long covid wouldn't help with trying to improve either)

Why the best mentality? Well when I lose it's ok, I never get sad about it, I don't get angry.

I reached 524 again days ago, now below 500: I'm glad. I reached 400 even in bullet, am 438 in blitz again, it's enough for me. Enjoy playing is far more important than how the results are or the number called alloy errr elo.