Need advice on how to take a lose

Just need to vent here. I don't know how to deal with losing chess games or dealing with getting a wrong answer in general. Something I suffered from early childhood is overreacting over a wrong answer and suffering from paranoia as a result of it going as far as quitting chess for 8 months straight for getting 0/6 OTB performance years ago. I improve as I go but everytime I lose, I become very very very angry at myself for making such mistakes especially dealing with positions where I am winning. This have resulted me to lose few more games and so on until i tilt very badly. This game has a special way of triggering my deepest insecurities yet making me feel like at my peak for finding the greatest moves. 

Not the first time where I feel rejected going into University (getting probation), Or achieving something in my classes but especially feeling rejected at a game I try dedicating to as a teenager to my adolescence or more so, something I put time and effort to making very stupid mistakes ultimately leaving my opponent probably baffling. 

It is especially the case when an opponent somehow does cheat a game and get my rating refunded that I feel very vexed and angry for not just playing a cheater if I ever do so, but had me thinking if I am really that dumb to lose a completely winning game somehow. 

Feels like this game does somehow keep me sane by making me feel like I am going insane. Otherwise who knows how I may cope with feeling such a burden 

Just here for advice is all and I thank you for reading this far. 

Well, you can take the loss and feel bad about it. But I suggest going to game review and try to figure out a pattern across games of how you lost.