am I a good player
Define "good player"? In my opinion, if you can get, say, 15 moves into a game without hanging any one-move tactics from undefended pieces, forks, skewers, discoveries, pinned pieces, & mating threats, you're already a pretty good player. (Based on personal perception, having experienced beginner-level, strong-beginner-level, and intermediate-level gameplay)
Right now? You’re not very good. But is that bad? Not necessarily. I’ve been in your situation before, and after a lot of hard work, dedication, and way too many games, I’m much better than I was. Just look at my stats (kinda confusing tho because I used to use blitz competitively but now I play rapid competitively, so I was about 200 blitz and now I’m over 1500 rapid).