Anything to wrap up before I die

So I'm just an unattractive and ugly delinquent-looking guy, 48, single and I've had a very rough childhood. Had excellent grades back in school so that I could impress my crush and asked her out in my 10th grade just to get mocked and beaten by the whole school, even by some teachers too as they also had feelings for my crush. But even after all that, I found and fell in love with chess for the first time, and found a new purpose for my life. I used to play it all the time to divert my mind from the sexual harassment and whooping from my older step-sisters and other childhood traumas. This is maybe the first time I'm sharing it somewhere as I have no one to talk to, neither here on chess com or in real life, no one likes to hear me out, no one I can't live this life anymore, neither respect at workplace nor in the neighborhood or neither here in chess com, I mean how can I get respect if I have no people to call them "friends" at the first place. But I still ignored the whole world for my love of "CHESS" which I continued till I was 18 because, after that, I had to entirely focus on my studies. Past forward to April of this year, I again got the chance to start loving the thing I beloved the MOST, as I got my retirement on the 11th of June this year. But from that day until now, I'm on a losing streak every day, losing matches after matches, hardly winning a game in a whole week. GUESS CHESS DOESN'T LOVE ME BACK ANYMORE NOW. SHE HAS MOVED ON FROM ME I SEE. THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF MY LIFE, THE REASON I WAS ALIVE TO THIS DAY... HAS JUST DISAPPEARED AS IF I'M NOT CAPABLE OF HER ANYMORE. So as the purpose of my life has already gone, I'm here to announce that I'm doing to suicide tomorrow. I know what I'm gonna do is just stupid, but I'll still do it as I have nothing to lose nor anyone gonna remember me or mourn for me. (EVEN CRYING RIGHT NOW WHILE WRITING THIS, SO SORRY FOR ANY GRAMMAR MISTAKES. FORGIVE ME AS I'M GOING TO DIE TOMORROW ANYWAY)

I just want to suicide now as there's nothing left. No excuse, no jokes. SO FOR THE FIRST AND LAST TIME, Can anyone tell me if I need to complete any remaining task, like a will or any particular thing before I die? I'd be happy to hear you out.

Tomorrow, after I return from work for the last time, I will open up my account for the last time just to see if anyone had even cared to reply for me, which I know what's gonna happen. I'd be really glad if anyone has any suggestions to give too. Then I'll happily drink the poisoned wine I bought today and rest forever. THANK YOU 

This is Shin Miyamura, signing off.

From what I can see you're winning 75% of your matches and your rank is looking really good already. Pretty much everyone who plays here would love to be in that position. I worry that you're not going to find the best support on this forum. Please take a look at the Samaritans website: https://www.samaritans.org/

,It's pretty sad when people that want to live get told they have cancer and die within days then others that have good health kill themself .