chess.com is always putting me as black

But before that you had 4 games in a row as white.

It possible to have multiple of the same color in a row. The system currently gives the player most due black that color, unless it's a rematch where the color alternates from the last game.

Over the long run, it will trend towards 50/50

In rapid, you've had 1,038 whites and 1,022 blacks

Well, I'll try to play with white this time around

Let's start over

I'll try to play with white this time around

It's not over

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground

Getting black is killing me, but the game's the only one

It's not over

Look at what your opponents did, learn how to play a decent opening against them and try not to drop pieces in the middlegame. Problems with having black will go away.