Try to win with the Fred defense. It works therapeutically.
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OP's a heck of a lot better than I am, about 90% of all chess players on this site, and like 99.9% of all people. That's pretty good in my opinion.
Sep 18, 2016
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#25
No, there really was a guy who committed suicide because of chess. Read Vladamir Nabakov's "The Defense" (or google it) which is based on a real person (Count von Bardelban or something) who tried to develop the perfect defense and when it didn't work, excused himself, got up from the table and jumped out a window!
You have to decide which is your problem, chess or depression. Probably depression, because chess players who are not depressed usually know their weaknesses and find a way to improve on them. Need Tactics training? Need Strategy ideas? Need to know more mating patterns? Those can all be solved. Thinking the fight is futile because one will never be impervious to loss... is unrealistic, but more a sign of depression. Get better. At chess if that helps, but first get better at seeing your worth, or believing it even if you can't see it. Think of others who would be upset by your loss. Get outside and appreciate nature. Find someone to form a good friendship with. Be grateful for what you have. Know chess is only a game. Hope that helps.
Sep 18, 2016
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#26
look, la consolante, I can't speak for him but this is plain stupid, giving up is a better idea
Sep 18, 2016
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#27
fallingboulder wrote:
I feel like committing suicide because I can't get better at chess. I have attempted suicide in the past because I could not get better at chess. Whats the point of living if I can't get better at chess?
Chess is a bad reason to off yourself. If you are that despondent, please get some help.
fallingboulder wrote:
This is dead serious! I really have attempted suicide in the past and I was put in a mental hospital after I attempted. Chess means everything to me.
Are you medicated? If so, have you taken your meds?? Call whoever prescribes them now.
Bramblyspam wrote:
With posts like this, there is indeed a fair chance that it's a joke/troll posting. There's also a chance it's for real. On the internet it can be hard to tell.
In case of doubt, I prefer to treat it as genuine.
True. Best wishes to you fallingboulder. I hope you make the decision that best suits you.
Sep 18, 2016
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#29
For those saying no one would commit suicide over chess, please look up Lembit Oll, Alvis Vitolins, Karen Grigorian, and Curt Von Bardeleben who was mentioned above.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
Sep 18, 2016
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#30
I wouldn't care that much if I were him, they've proven to be unworthy human beings anyway, in my humble opinion of course, the so called important one among them, and religion has nothing to do with it.
Sep 18, 2016
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#31
Talking to a punk? Don't cross the road at night when you are drunk, it's not wide enough.
fallingboulder написал:
I feel like committing suicide because I can't get better at chess. I have attempted suicide in the past because I could not get better at chess. Whats the point of living if I can't get better at chess?
Please, reconsider. Think about all the things that you have that mean things to other people, outside of just chess. I know it feels like there is nothing there, but as a friend of someone who took their own life, it'll leave a hole that will never heal. Chess is something you can spend your whole life playing, and nobody will judge you for how good or bad you are at it. So there's plenty of reason to keep playing - there's more forty move games than there are stars in the sky! 
Chess means nothing, honestly. Many people are missing out, they forget whats important in life. Once you have a near death experience and see how close you were to losing everything you love you look at the world with different eyes.
Sep 18, 2016
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#34
Your rating is higher than mine if you are going to commit suicide I guess I have to use the de-atomizer on myself.
Sep 18, 2016
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#35
ChrisWainscott wrote:
For those saying no one would commit suicide over chess, please look up Lembit Oll, Alvis Vitolins, Karen Grigorian, and Curt Von Bardeleben who was mentioned above.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
As for Lembit Oll, Wiki says this: "Oll, who was married with two sons, fell into severe depression after he divorced. He committed suicide."
It was not over chess.
Sep 18, 2016
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#36
It's a mistake to link too much of your self worth to chess. As adults we won't improve much despite all our efforts. Just enjoy.
livat01 escribió:
ChrisWainscott wrote:
For those saying no one would commit suicide over chess, please look up Lembit Oll, Alvis Vitolins, Karen Grigorian, and Curt Von Bardeleben who was mentioned above.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
Then try showing some compassion instead of being jerks.
As for Lembit Oll, Wiki says this: "Oll, who was married with two sons, fell into severe depression after he divorced. He committed suicide."
It was not over chess.
Neither was Vitolins' case.
Sep 18, 2016
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#39
-Magnus Carlsen: “Chess should not become an obsession. Otherwise there’s a danger that you will slide off into a parallel world, you will lose your sense of reality, get lost in the infinite cosmos of the game. You become crazy.”
fallingboulder wrote:
I feel like committing suicide because I can't get better at chess. I have attempted suicide in the past because I could not get better at chess. Whats the point of living if I can't get better at chess?
You're 1628. You're already at super-GM level like myself. This means you're GREAT at chess.
BTW, I have also attempted suicide and have been a cutter for over two years. Things get much better. Trust that there is a light and will to see that light. Things will still look dim at times but there's always going to be light.
It does sound a little off, because people commit suicide when they're depressed, not when they're frustrated with chess.
But sure, you might be fixated on chess while in a state of depression.
Anyway, there are options to feel better that don't involve killing yourself. Talk to someone face to face about this (like a family member or friend). If you can't do that call a hotline or visit a hospital. There are options for you.