What's this about?
Don't do it.

I honestly think I am losing my own mind. 😫
Lose someone else's mind. It's way more fun.

Actually your final king move to f1 was not that bad as you still get mated with K-h3 Q-g2+ K-g4 B-f3++.
Play less blitz, more slower games. Play, analyze, study. Rinse and repeat.

Duran Duran were gay?
they sure dress like it.
It was the 80's.

for the first game you showed, why didn't your opponent just take your queen on move 17?
Dude, he closed his account already. Your words fall on deaf ears...or illiterate ears, if that's what this is.

At this age it is not a good thing to spend too much time on an activity that is taxing on the brain, especially when you have school to take care of. School is more important than chess.
In my experience growing up (I am now 30) the people who played chess every day did so because of the encouragement from their parents and they were really unsociable and not the same as other people.
The ones who played occasionally were totally fine.
You are also setting an unrealistic expectation of you expect to be a player who never makes a blunder after they played every day for three years. People who played from some age before age 10 make blunders and aren't always chess pros.
I firmly believe that it is not true that a lot of "hard work" can make anyone a top chess player. Same goes for other activities whether physical or mental.
You can reach a certain high level that will possibly better than average among competing players, but you cannot expect to just study chess a lot and become a grandmaster eventually. The very best players have the wiring in their brain that makes them so much above average.
What I reccomend is taking a significant break from Chess. If you study and play it as much as you describe it could have negative consequences either for your mind, or social skill.
Another option is to switch and play another logic based competitive game. I recommend Go because its structure is entirely different from Chess and it is more complex than Chess. You should at least be comoetent at Go if you like Chess so much.
Another good game is Chinese Chess XiangQi. I play it on the iPhone or computer and it is very good.

Whip_Kitten wrote:
Duran Duran were gay?
Big hair and makeup on male rock singers was a common thing in 80s and early 90s. Only few were gay and those who are confirmed to be actually didn't wear much makeup.
It is because in today's culture pop and rock singers do not do the big hair and makeup look anymore that people don't get it.

Anyone who post here ever again shall be damned and send to hell where they will be made to inflate 1000baloons

Anyone who post here ever again shall be damned and send to hell where they will be made to inflate 1000baloons
pretty much how i prepare for my kid's bday. so what's new?
Okay.....u can come up with new ideas for these chess therapists

I rest the case....carry on the legacy on your shoulders monsieur...may hell's creatures find you eventually...
for the first game you showed, why didn't your opponent just take your queen on move 17?
Dude, he closed his account already. Your words fall on deaf ears...or illiterate ears, if that's what this is.
Well we are here to help in someway or say something so that's what I did

for the first game you showed, why didn't your opponent just take your queen on move 17?
Dude, he closed his account already. Your words fall on deaf ears...or illiterate ears, if that's what this is.
Well we are here to help in someway or say something so that's what I did
Maybe he has the common problem that has to do with ego. You know how some people might become kind of good at chess, at which point they believing they must win all the time? This type of person gets very distressed and angry when they encounter a more powerful player, or notice a mistake they make.
I think this stage passes and might be something beginning players have not only in chess, but with any sport or ability.
His problem is thinking he knows how to improve his chess strength. He should spend more of his time learning about that and less time doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.