handicap

i am a member of handicap chess team,i hope i can inspire my other co member by writing a topic for being handicap.i was operated for osteomylities once and because i am also a diabetic,its  takes time to heal.,i could not walk normally without my stroller or cane., or can graduate to destroy the eyes,kidney, liver orheart.diabetes brings nerve damages.my left leg has also undergone incision for continued pus that dont stop. it tookalmost to seven months before i could tolerate the pain.there was a time when i could hardly move and stay on one position in the hospital and when i left the hospital.little improvement leads to big improvement, during the painful days, i learn to live  with pain and every day suffering or just like torture to me.i was also thinking of commiting suicide thanks my wife ,sister and children were understanding and considerate to me . with each day, i begin teaching my brain that this too will pass away and that sooner my left leg will get stronger and those nerves will be  nice in circulation. i also pray to god for assistance to  extend more my life. when i was capable of sitting down, that was the time  when i get to know chesscom on the computer site,i had been a lover of chess for many years back its only i did not get serious enough not unlike today.playing chess also serves as my regular painreliever,but when i make wrong moves pain starts and is being felt especially when im tired  and finally losing a game.my first months at chesscom were more of live games so as not to think of pain because im focus on speed of moves and not what i feel.i also learn to convert negative emotions to good energy,smile laugh and be happy even though it is painful everyday. at first it was very hard but youll get use to it by training or teaching our brain process. neuron die and neurons are also produce for better thinking. and good nerves system,my handicap is not a serious one but i share my story for all just to think and  teach our brain positively for a good purpose for healing.with the help of gods miracle and self miracle,we can still continue to live for another day week months or year or perhaps many years more. we must have a strong faith in ourself  belief and with god guidance, all things are possible for those who believe.

You are well written. All the different diagnoses, but the feeling of pain in all the same. God help you, my friend!

wow. my left arm is partially paralyzed. i'm pretty much fine though.